the total blessing
RICHARD WURMBRAND

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THE TOTAL BLESSING

Other books by Richard Wurmbrand:
The Overcomers (Monarch Publications 1993)
From the Lips of Children (Hodder & Stoughton 1986)
Where Christ Still Suffers (Marshall Pickering 1985)
Little Notes which Like Each Other (Hodder & Stoughton 1976)
Sermons in Solitary Confinement (Marshall Morgan & Scott 1969)
Reaching Towards the Heights (Marshall Morgan & Scott 1985)
Tortured for Christ (Marshall Morgan & Scott 1983)
In God's Underground (Hodder & Stoughton 1969)
My Correspondence with Jesus (Monarch Publications 1990)
Marx: Prophet of Darkness (Marshall Morgan & Scott 1986)
From Torture to Triumph (Monarch Publications 1988)
Alone with God (Hodder & Stoughton 1988)
If Prison Walls Could Speak (Hodder & Stoughton 1972)

Richard Wurmbrand
The Total
Blessing

First published in Great Britain 1995
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CONTENTS
Introduction to the Author	i
 1	The Total Blessing	7
 2	God Speaking in Dreams	9
 3	What Is Truth?	12
 4	Self-denial	14
 5	The Conscious and the Unconscious	17
 6	What Truth Is Jesus?	20
 7	Prayers	22
 8	The Simplicity of Moral Problems	24
 9	The Sin of Consistency	27

 10	The Commandment to Be One	29
 11	About Being Narrow-minded and
Broad-minded	32
 12	The Little We Know about God	35
 13	We and Our Enemies	38
 14	The Matter of Compromise	40
 15	The Search for Truth	43
 16	About Suffering	46
 17	The Angels of Suffering	48
 18	Sharing His Divinity	50
 19	Attitude towards Law	53
 20	Not Acting	56
 21	Right Actions	59
 22	Having Jesus at His Best	62
 23	Influence God	64
 24	God Who Evolves	66
 25	Are You Ready to Die?	69
 26	One Trinitarian God	71
 27	A Few Thoughts about the Devil	74
 28	Problems of Faith in God	77
 29	In the Name of Jesus	80
 30	Reason and Sentiment	83
 31	Why Evil in the World of a Good Father?	85
 32	God's Characteristics	87

Introduction to the Author
A book by Geoffrey Hanks appeared in 1992 in Britain with
the title, 70 Great Christians Changing the World (Christian
Focus Publications). Among others it names Peter and Paul,
Ignatius, Polycarp, martyrs of old; world-renowned teachers
such as Jerome, Augustine, Columbus; Patrick, apostle of
the Irish; Francis of Assisi; Wycliffe, Luther, Tyndale; John
Knox, Scottish reformer; Ignatius of Loyola; Carey, the
father of modern missions,- Hudson Taylor, Livingstone,
founders of missions in Asia and Africa; Barnardo, founder of
orphanages; William Booth of the Salvation Army; Spurgeon
and Moody, the great evangelistic preachers.
In this book one chapter is about Richard Wurmbrand. He
is counted among the 70 greatest. This tops good, but also
very bad reports about him in the world press. Below are a
few of these:
No contemporary person has meant so much for the opening
of the eyes of the West to what is going on in the Communist
camp — except the much decried Wurmbrand. Before
Wurmbrand came, we spoke to deaf ears.
The Revd Michael Bourdeaux, Director of the Institute for
the Study of Religion and Communism, London
Wurmbrand irritates, but opens our eyes... Wurmbrand has
got the world to hearken, even if he has sacrificed himself.
He has shouted the cry of the martyrs.
The Revd Ingemar Martinson
General Secretary of the Slavic Mission, Sweden
Wurmbrand is an Iron Curtain Paul. He is the most author-
itative voice of the Underground Church, more than a living
martyr.
Underground Evangelism
Since the Sermon on the Mount v?as delivered, no one has
preached with love like Richard Wurmbrand.
Haratta, Finland

Wurmbrand has brought to the universal Church a new
dimension, reminding it about the martyrs.
Church Times, London
Wurmbrand burst like a fireball across the cool complacency
of some.
USA Congressional Record
We were hit by a hurricane called Wurmbrand.
Tablet, New Zealand
We have checked and can say with almost certainty that
there has never been a Pastor Wurmbrand in Romania.
Finnish Communist newspaper
The manifestations of Wurmbrand are determined by high
emotions, they are without compromise and often naive . ..
His judgements about church politics prove a terrifying
narrowness . . . The danger of Wurmbrand's grotesque dis-
tortions consists in the fact that he calls Christian groups in
Eastern Europe to resistance until death ...
Gerhard Simon in The Churches in Russia
In the present Communist regimes strong powers for the
humanization of society lie hidden... Wurmbrand
becomes really dangerous.
Van de Heuwell, then Director of Public Relations, the
World Council of Churches
Pastor Richard Wurmbrand possesses a bordello and nine
night clubs in the USA.
From the Soviet film, The Emissaries, which had as its
target the smuggling of religious literature into the
USSR, organized by 'Jesus to the Communist World'
Wurmbrand is the devil's mouthpiece.
Arbeiterzeitung, Switzerland
Wurmbrand is a new St John the Baptist... a voice crying in
the wilderness.
Christianity Today, USA

Wurmbrand is a Marxist theologian.         The Pilgrim, USA
Wurmbrand is a passionate anti-Communist and anti-
Soviet. His books are full of unveiled hatred.
Several Soviet newspapers
Wurmbrand completely rejects scholarly objectivity.
Reformatorisch Dagbladett, Holland
Wurmbrand is a red pastor.
Vaderland, South Africa
Wurmbrand misuses the pulpit for spreading his political
views.
The Swedish Bishop Strom in Dalademokraten
Wurmbrand is one of the most active voices of anti-
Communism.
Polititcheskoie Samoabrazovanie, Moscow
Except the Bible, nothing has shaken me like Wurmbrand's
Tortured For Christ. It is the message of the century. Even
more: since the persecution of Christians by Nero, it is the
most powerful Act of Martyrs.
Dr Kurt Koch
renowned German evangelical pastor and author
Wurmbrand is broadly charitable in his understanding of
God's love and the nature of man. Not even an ounce of
contentiousness appears in his books. Perhaps the agony of
long imprisonment purges that out of a man.
Alliance Witness, USA
Wurmbrand suffered beastly treatment by the Communists,
so he has remained with a confused mind. He is not Evangeli-
cal, so he cannot be trusted. He is rather a mystic.
A Dutch Christian magazine
Wurmbrand is intemperate.
Catholic Herald, London
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Wurmbrand speaks softly, without flourished comparisons
and without dramatic exaggerations .. . His concepts of
Christianity come from the original sources ... Loud pro-
motion does not correspond to his character. Richard
Wurmbrand is surprisingly near to the Nazarene whom he
represents. Weak in health, he catches through unyielding
spiritual power. He descends from the podium exhausted
and has made his audience ashamed rather than inflamed.
Berner Tagblatt, Switzerland
Wurmbrand is a dirty Jew.
Christian Vanguard, USA
Wurmbrand has been pro-Nazi.
Werden Gang, Norway
Wurmbrand, a fascinating and passionate (sometimes even
excessively so) personality, appears always firm in the fight
against the scepticism of occidental Christianity, which,
with rare exceptions, cannot believe that Communism
might be a menace for her.
La Suisse, Switzerland
Wurmbrand's book // that were Christ would you give Him
your blanket} convinces one to give his blanket not only to
one's persecuted brother, but even to one's persecutor, so full
of love is it.
Nuova Republica, Italy
The denunciations of tortures and barbarisms in the Com-
munist camp made by Wurmbrand are more moving than
those of Solzhenitsyn.
II Citadino, Italy
Wurmbrand's attacks on Communism's treatment of Chris-
tian prisoners was viewed by many as sensationalist until
Solzhenitsyn's Gulag Archipelago confirmed his descrip-
tions of the atrocities.
Daily News, California
Thank God for men like Solzhenitsyn and Wurmbrand. Both
have written books on their imprisonment in Communist

countries. These books have been made available to us for a
reason - a divine warning.
Tacoma News Tribune, USA
Some church leaders in the West attack Pastor Richard
Wurmbrand, the leading fighter for the Underground
Church, accusing him of lying and exaggerating regarding
the atrocities in Communist prisons. I have personally met
Christians who sat in prison with Wurmbrand. They told
me, 'Not only is everything which Wurmbrand says true, but
much, much more. Nobody can describe the ferocious things
happening there.'
Mrs Anutza Moise
author of A ransom for Wurmbrand in Morgenbladet,
Norway
Reverend Richard Wurmbrand still bears the marks on his
body of hideous Communist tortures. He is an interna-
tionally respected author, lecturer and evangelist.
Boston Herald, USA
The publicity given Solzhenitsyn has brought to light the
truth of Wurmbrand's outspoken statements. Should we not
back up Wurmbrand and his Christ-like mission to the
Communist world?
Reformatio, Switzerland
Both Solzhenitsyn and Wurmbrand are giants in modern
church history.
Dagen, Norway
The facts about the author are much simpler: He is an
ordinary Christian who lived in very unusual circumstances.
He is a pastor of Jewish descent, who served in Romania in
Fascist and Communist times. His wife, Sabiria, and he were
imprisoned and court-martialled under Fascists. They were
also in jail under Communists, the author for fourteen years,
his wife for three. Both parents of his wife, three sisters, a
brother and six foster children (they count as foster children
only because legal adoption was not possible) were killed in
the holocaust.
During his term in jail, he never had any books or writing

materials. He could only meditate and have spiritual experi-
ences, favoured by the fact that he spent years in solitary
confinement.
After the ordeal, Wurmbrand arrived in the West where he
founded an international organization dedicated to helping
persecuted churches and families of prisoners. It was
founded to be the voice of the martyrs: making known their
suffering, but also their splendid examples of love and hero-
ism.
The organization has its offices in 40 countries and ex-
pands its work to 70.
In different countries it works under different names. In
the USA it is called 'The Voice of the Martyrs', hi the UK it
has been founded by the Revd Stuart Harris and is named
'Release International'.
Mr Harris was the first Western pastor to come to Romania
in a time of fierce persecution; he met secretly with the
author to get first-hand information about the suffering
church, and brought its message to Great Britain.
The organization provides churches oppressed by Com-
munism and Islam with God's word and literature in 63
languages, legally where possible. Where this is not possible
they introduce books by other ways. In some cases they
create, at great risk, secret printing presses within countries
with oppressive regimes.
Paster Wurmbrand wrote much about the suffering
churches and missionary problems. This time he has written
a book about God and human life. Most of the thoughts
contained in this book come from when he was alone in a
cell, 30 feet beneath the earth, never, but never, seeing sun,
moon, stars, trees, flowers, birds, butterflies. He never saw
any other colour than grey - the grey of the walls and of the
prison uniforms. He never heard a voice except the insults of
those who watched him.
So don't wonder if some of these thoughts seem strange.
They come from a man who lived a strange life.
Tom White
Director of The Voice of the Martyrs, USA
The author welcomes correspondence at: Release
International, PO Box 19, Bromley BR2 9TZ.

The Total Blessing
Joseph received a blessing far beyond what his father
Jacob imparted to him. We might call it the total
blessing: 'The Almighty shall bless thee with bless-
ings of heaven above and blessings of the deep that lie
beneath' (Genesis 49.25). This is the blessing in its
fullness reserved for the people of God. 'The Lord had
blessed Abraham in all things' (Genesis 24.1) — not
only in material or spiritual matters, but in all things.
There is a state of consciousness reserved for the
elect of God which will lead only to right actions. This
is made possible by becoming a being apart. Samuel
said to Saul, 'The spirit of the Lord will come upon
thee, and thou shalt be... turned into another man' ( 1
Samuel 10.6). This 'new man' receives a blank cheque
from God. 'Do as occasion serve thee, for God is with
thee' (v. 7). Saul could do what he liked because 'God
gave him another heart' (v. 9).
In the Hebrew Masoretic text, after the word 'man'
referring to Saul (v. 22), a large open space is left, because
an individual with such privileges from God can hardly
be considered simply a man like everyone else. Has he
not become something more than human, something
approaching a higher, angelic species, in which another
ethic and a different sort of relationship with God rule?
He is a man blessed in all he does. He has not only the
blessings of heaven, but also those of the deep.
Through their new birth, a person becomes rooted in
the highest Source, which is eternal, and thus raise
into heavenly realms everything they touch. With self
forgotten, they partake of the divine nature. Passions
and evil habits are forsaken, and the way is opened to
be blessed in everything.
The following story illustrates what is meant by this
total blessing. A man played the lottery and won a

million. The man who sold him the ticket asked him,
'How did it happen that you chose just the right
number?' He replied, 'Well, I am Jewish.''What dif-
ference did that make?' 'It was decisive,' replied the
winner. 'Being Jewish I knew that the number seven
must win, because it is the holy number in our books.
The seventh day is the Sabbath. There are seven great
religious feasts. You find seven all over the Bible.
Seven times seven makes 48. So I chose seven hundred
and forty eight and became a millionaire.
The salesman in the shop where he had bought the
ticket said, 'But Sir, seven times seven makes 49, not 48/
The winner answered, 'God knows that I am bad at
mathematics. He knows what mistakes I would make in
multiplication. He willed it that the wrong number I
calculated should be just the number I needed to become
rich/
God can give a blessing that makes not only all things
work together for good, but all things, even the things
that you consider the worst imaginable. In the Old
Testament, Joseph was sold by his brothers to be a slave.
This resulted in him becoming prime minister and the
saviour of his family in which he had been despised.
You can have this blessing, and you can give such
blessings to others.
But human beings can impart curses, too. If some-
one steals some wheat, grinds it, bakes it, and then
says a benediction over it, they blaspheme. God said to
the priests, 'If ye will not hear, and if ye will not lay it
to heart to give glory unto my name, I will even send a
curse upon you, and I will curse your blessings'
(Malachi 2.2). There are religious services from which
it would be wise to flee before the blessing is given.
As for yourself, be cleansed, blessed in all you do,
blessed with the blessings from above and from the
deep. Go to church at least for the blessing. Seek the
blessings of righteous people. You will thereby receive
a precious reality.
Then share your blessings with others.
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God Speaking in Dreams
Brother Lawrence wrote, 'The barque of the Spirit goes
forward even in sleep.' We read in Job 33.15-16:'In a
dream, in a vision of the night, when deep sleep falls
upon men, in slumberings upon the bed: then (God)
opens the ears of men, and seals their instruction.'
Therefore a Christian never sleeps fully. Solomon's
bride said, 'I sleep, but my heart wakes.' It is while she
sleeps that she hears the voice of her beloved saying,
'Open to me, my sister' (Song of Solomon 5.2}. I person-
ally never go to bed without paper and pen near me,
which I use to note all my dreams. Occasionally I have
dreamt whole sermons and articles, which have often
been judged my best. The same was said about
Spurgeon.
Why don't more Christians pay attention to then-
dreams? The practice is very useful, but I must say that
in most instances it is not a very pleasant experience.
In Scripture, the second recorded appearance of God
in a dream was to Abimelech, king of Gerar (Genesis
20.2). God said to him, 'Behold, thou art but a dead
man' - not a message many would be eager to hear. At
the same time God informed Abimelech that
Abraham, the man who lied to him and endangered his
life, was 'a prophet, and he shall pray for thee, and thou
shalt live' (v. 7). In his dream-speaking to us, God
sometimes contravenes our moral and religious
standards.
The first recorded appearance of God in a dream was
to Abraham: 'A deep sleep fell upon Abraham; and, lo,
an horror of darkness fell upon him' (Genesis 15.12).
How many of us would be ready to hear God speaking in
dreams if the experience were accompanied by feelings
of horror? Furthermore, God gave Abraham unpleasant
news: 'Know of a surety that thy seed shall be a stranger
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in a land that is not theirs, and shall serve them: and
they shall afflict them four hundred years7 ( v. 13 ).
Would you be willing to accept revelations from
God about prolonged suffering for your descendants
lasting centuries? Yet such nightmares can be revela-
tions from God.
An angel of the Lord appeared to New Testament
Joseph in a dream and told him, 'Arise, and take the
young child and his mother, and flee into Egypt, and be
thou there until I bring thee word: for Herod will seek
the young child to destroy him' (Matthew 2.13). If
Joseph had not acted on God's revelations in a dream,
the infant Jesus would not have survived. The condi-
tion for hearing God's voice in dreams is to be open not
only to good news, but to all of God's plans, though
some might seem strange and terrible to our human
understanding.
We have become accustomed to the notion of having
God as a personal Saviour. The expression is not bibli-
cal. As a matter of fact, very few people are capable of
receiving personal revelations from God. History and
biography indicate that God has led his people to
victory through dramatic upheavals. And sometimes
God's revelations anticipate these dramas. The walk
with God involves more than caresses and expressions
of love. Anyone who cannot bear the foreknowledge of
such dramas should content themselves with the corp-
orate knowledge of the Church.
It is not necessary for everyone to have personal
communications. In fact, few can bear them. If we do
not have an openness to revelations that may involve
great suffering, what we call the guidance of a personal
Saviour or of the Holy Spirit may be simple illusion.
Dreams from God can be nightmares, as in the
book of Daniel. They can also take the form of erotic
imaginings, as in Solomon's Song. Such imagery can
be the symbol for capturing something of the in-
expressible love relationship existing between the
faithful soul and our God.
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If the authors of the Bible had not used such thought-
forms, the Song of Solomon would never have become
part of the canon of Scripture. Today, those same theo-
logians and scholars who consider the Bible infallibly
inspired would doubtless reject any prompting to
prepare a sermon clothed in erotic language or under-
girded with dire predictions for the families of the
faithful. Yet drama and nightmares and eroticism can
all be the means by which God communicates with us.
Through the prophet Joel God promised that in the
last days 'Your old men shall dream dreams, and your
young men shall see visions' (Joel 2.28).
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What is Truth}
The biblical assertion that Jesus is the truth makes the
reason rebel. The classical definition of truth is 'con-
formity between judgements and reality'. Now, Jesus
might be a man or the Son of God or both, but he is in
no case an abstraction like 'truth' used in this sense.
He is more than the conformity between things and
assertions.
To have truth we must go beyond the strict bound-
aries of reason. As soon as we leave the sphere of the
material objects with which we interact daily, we
realize how difficult it is to apprehend truth, firstly
because the objects of our inquiry do not show them-
selves to us as they are. It took us thousands of years of
intellectual development to discover that both the
universe and our bodies are made up of atoms. The
atom still hides its mystery from us. So does every
person we encounter, not because of any bad intention
on their part, but simply because we are all enigmas to
ourselves.
Things and persons are 'ex-sistent'. In Latin this
word means 'to be outside themselves'. The prodigal
son of Jesus' parable who deserted his father, used up
his inheritance and ended up herding swine, 'came to
himself (Luke 15.17). Up to this point, he was outside
his real self, a toy used and discarded by the world he
sought to conquer. Whoever had known him up to that
point would not have known the real person, because
it was not within himself. It was an object in the hands
of others who led him into evil. His real being was
divorced from his self. To know him, one would have
had to meet him outside of what he appeared to be for a
time.
Original sin practically assures that one's first en-
counter with reality is in the area of 'non-truth'. It is
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only by virtue of the divine, embodied in Jesus, that we
find our rightful place within the sphere of his
marvellous creation, rather than as observers of a
mirage that presents itself as reality. Jesus enables us
to love and appreciate the world as God loved it when
he gave his Son for it. This love causes us to apprehend
it in truth.
Because individuals can hide their real nature, we
may fail to understand them. But like everything in
creation, including even hidden objects, they have one
common attribute: the very fact of being. They are.
There are not only good and bad times, there are
simply times. And there exists the simple 'there are7.
We usually pay attention to accidents and neglect this
essential.
Jesus comes from God, whose name is 'I am what I
am' (Exodus 3.14). He is the essential Being who exists
above transitory accidents. Jesus, his message to man-
kind, is the truth, above the great non-truth and the
small bits of truth on which we live.
When you have Jesus, the truth, you have everything
- the whole truth.
Francis of Assisi was once asked, while hoeing his
garden, 'What would you do if you knew you would die
today?'
He replied, 'I would hoe my garden.'
He had the truth. He was above the world of change
and decay; he was within the sphere of reality, where
Jesus reigns.

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Self-denial
Jesus said, 'If any man will come after me, let him deny
himself, and take up his cross' (Luke 9.23). The first
thing a Christian has to do is to deny himself. Every-
thing else follows afterwards. If you take up your cross
— even if you suffer prison and torture for his name —
and have not denied yourself, the sacrifice you bring
will only tend to magnify you, make you proud, and
destroy your soul.
There is a legend about a dove that, pursued by an
eagle, took refuge in Moses' bosom. The eagle de-
manded the surrender of its prey, arguing that God
himself ordained that one creature should live by the
sacrifice of another. Moved by its argument but con-
cerned for the dove, Moses gave an equivalent amount
of flesh from his own bosom, then freed the dove.
Now, Moses did not tell the story; it is not found in
Scripture. Neither are many of his own acts of kind-
ness found in the Pentateuch, which he authored. The
self had been denied.
What we perceive as the self is the sum of our
performances in life. Some individuals are elated by all
the good things they feel they have done; others are
depressed by the many sins they have committed;
most perceive a mixture of both in their lives.
We have to abolish this image of the self. I am not
simply what I perform.
David took Uriah's wife and had Uriah murdered.
But he was not what he did. He was 'a man after God's
own heart' (Acts 13.22).
Saul of Tarsus persecuted Christians viciously. But
he was not what he did. He was one of God's elect,
chosen to be an apostle. This election had taken place
before the foundation of the world. His life-
experiences    before    his    conversion    were    the
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developmental steps of an embryonic apostle.
Judas Iscariot went about preaching and healing,
after having forsaken all his possessions, as did the
other eleven disciples, for Christ's sake. But he too was
not what he did. He was the betrayer whose name
stands even today for infamy.
A butterfly while in the cocoon looks like a worm. It
is not a worm, but a butterfly in process.
The self which has to be denied is the false image we
have about our person. There was a Pharisee who
really fasted twice a week, gave tithe of all he pos-
sessed, and did many other good things. But he was
something other than his actions. He was a hypocrite.
A publican who extorted from people felt he had good
cause not to lift up so much as his eyes to heaven. But
God knew him better. He was not what he had done.
He was a man justified before God (Luke 18.10-14).
When Jacob and Esau, the children of Rebecca, were
not yet born, 'neither having done any good or evil'
(Romans 9.11), Jacob was loved and Esau hated by God.
They were regarded for what they were, not what they
had done.
Do not let your mind be elated by good deeds or
driven to despair by irreparable sins. It is wrong to
consider the self a résumé of the deeds one has done
while playing in the game of life. We become outstand-
ing only when we deny these self-portraits and allow
ourselves to be designed and shaped by God.
God does not call himself 'I am what I do'. He does
different things, some of which might not be consid-
ered lovable. He sends plagues over a country and
destroys whole cities. Rather, he says, 'I am what I am'
(Exodus 3.14), independently of the outer play of
events. Scripture says simply, 'God is love'. Therefore
we love him.
Paul, too, says of himself, 'I am what I am' (1 Cor-
inthians 15.10). I am what I am, even if sometimes,
driven by forces over which I have no control, I do
things contrary to what you might expect.
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Once you adopt this attitude, no self remains. Paul
could say about himself that it was not he who lived,
but Christ lived in him (Galatians 2.20). The Father
will reveal the Son of God in you, too, if you grant him
access (Galatians 1.16). You will live having him as
your self. Then your cross will not crush you, nor will
your bearing it make you proud. You will be his
disciple indeed.
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The Conscious and the
Unconscious
Groping for answers, modern psychology has suddenly
discovered what Jesus taught two thousand years ago:
the necessity of self-denial. The self is our conscious, a
small island in the ocean of our unconscious. This
little self is not satisfied to be king but acts as if the
great unconscious did not even exist. The latter
avenges itself for this indignity by emerging in
neuroses. Jung formulates Jesus' teaching in other
words: ^e must re-centre our personality at a point
midway between the conscious and the unconscious'
[Two Essays in Analytic Psychology).
The conscious self has a dilemma which is at the
root of our perplexities, strains, and stresses. It knows
it appeared at a certain point in time and will have to
disappear sooner or later. Every birth and death is a
reminder of this fact.
The unconscious is simply undisturbed by such
matters, because it reflects on nothing. It manifests
itself in the involuntary fantasy, which contains
elements whose existence one had never before sus-
pected. The unconscious is, according to Jung, the
invisible player that pushes the conscious personality
about like a figure on a chessboard. The unconscious
plays, and the conscious worries about things over
which it has no control.
A sane self allows the whole entity to speak out as
the Bible teaches: 'Love God with all your heart, with
all your soul, with all your mind/ not only with the
rational, conscious part.
The self is not a unity but a contradictory multi-
plicity of complexes. A good analogy is the Bible itself,
in which are found cold historical facts, genealogies,
statistics, geographical data, fiction, poetry, puns,
myths, fables, parables, visions, dreams, doubts, utter
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love and confidence in God, questioning of God's
ways, and even blasphemous words written by devout
believers. Every part of the soul, even the most hidden,
the physically erotic, and the most sublimated love, is
manifest in the Bible. God revealed himself to all parts
of our psyche, in which there is no distaste for saying
unseemly things or reserve for the most holy secrets.
Man does not live on bread alone, nor do we live on the
rational, the decent, and the moral alone.
Consonant with the very varied needs of the com-
plex self, the Bible offers us all kinds of notions of God:
from the God of revenge to the God of love,- from the
God of the Jews to the Lord of the whole universe; a
God who fills meadows with fragrant flowers and who
sends plagues, fire, and sulphur from heaven; a God
who pities all and who will send the majority of
mankind into the bottomless pit. Behind all the im-
ages is the God who forbids us to make to ourselves
any images of him. He says, 'I am what I am', not what
you fancy me to be.
When you have thus forsaken the narrow self,
when the whole of you participates in your religion,
when you have brought all your sins and vices to be
cleansed and all your righteousness and virtues to be
attributed to the Creator, then you can die in peace.
You die to your opinions, the right ones and the
wrong ones, to your preferences, including the prefer-
ence for religion, to your tastes and will. You die to
the world, to its censure or applause. You die also to
the judgement of the Church about you. The Church
has not only condemned sins but has also burned
saints at the stake. You die to the censure and
approval of your friends and brethren. Watchman
Nee, China's renowned evangelist who died a mar-
tyr's death in a Communist prison, was a man ex-
communicated by the Church.
You desire to be approved only by God. The self has
been denied. You have the freedom and joy to be able to
bear a cross.
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Peter, though taught by Jesus to deny himself, had
not done so. Thus, he came to the point where, instead,
he denied the Lord he loved.
Everyone has only this choice: to deny yourself or to
deny your Master. Be sure you make the right choice!

What Truth is Jesus}
Aristotle in his Metaphysics put forth different con-
cepts of truth: aletheuein, which means 'nothing for-
gotten' or 'nothing veiled', and homoiosin, which
means 'concordance'.
St John's Gospel uses the first person for Jesus'
assertion, 'I am the truth'. Our thoughts and words
will never be more than thoughts and words. These
can only conform to a reality that consists of other
elements. Jesus is the representation of this reality in
human life, in all its fullness, without forgetting or
veiling any part of it. A person who lives in darkness
cannot see this reality. But Jesus places us in the light,
and at once reality becomes open to our awareness and
discernment and available to us for exploration. Grad-
ually we can know it more and more.
Baron Münchausen in the children's story told a lie
when he said that he pulled himself out of the mire by
his own hair. Likewise, we who are caught in darkness
cannot save ourselves from it. Jesus saves us by bring-
ing light, which is the realm of truth.
John lay on the breast of Jesus. Mary Magdalene
abandoned herself in expressions of love when she
kissed his feet and on at least one occasion sat quietly
to listen to him. For the Christian, then, truth is not an
intellectual construction, but the abandonment in
love to a Person who withholds nothing good from us.
Lie quietly in the sun and it will tan you. Lie quietly on
Jesus' bosom and truth will envelop and warm you.
All our partial perceptions and fragmented know-
ledge are non-truth because they do not apprehend the
essence of things. With our senses we perceive only
the surface of objects. Telescopes and microscopes put
us in touch with the surface of normally invisible
things, but again only superficially. Partial truth
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shows us a thing that is. Jesus, the essence of truth,
shows us the 'is' of a thing.
The word 'is', one of the most common and un-
remarkable words of our language, comes from the
Sanskrit asm - 'to breathe'. Through it the world
becomes animated. The word is so sacred that the
Hebrews did not use it, as they did not use the name of
God. Jesus says, 'I am' (John 19.5,6), and all the soldiers
fall to the ground before him. Jesus is the 'is' which is.
Therefore he is the truth.
Without Jesus, error is not mere accident, an occa-
sional falling into the mire, but a permanent state.
With Jesus you live in the essence of things. Without
him you live perforce in the counter-essence. You
don't have to tell lies. 'All men are liars' (Psalm
116.11 ). Without Jesus, you seek to discover true poli-
tics, or true science, or true philosophy, without
knowing what truth is. How would you recognize it if
you met it? It's like seeking a treasure without a map,
compass, tools, instructions, or even a description.
When you have Jesus, the Son of the omnipotent
God, you do not have to adjust your mind to reality.
Reality will conform itself to your mind. Truth for you
will become aletheia - unveiled.
You are Jesus' beloved. He will lift the veil from your
eyes so that you will see truth in all its fullness in his
loving eyes and will know it intimately in his tender
embrace.
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Prayers
When we invoke the sacred name of Jesus, there
should be neither the self alone nor Jesus alone, but
their union through invocation. All limitations of
thought should be transcended.
A person who prays so that prayer becomes the only
reality, and the worshipper and the worshipped are no
more separate entities, becomes a being who tran-
scends life and death. Every prayer should unite the
one who prays and the One to whom he or she prays, so
that prayer alone remains. Prayer without this aim is a
weak substitute.
Cultures are different. An Oriental Chinese mind is
not like a European mind, nor a Gentile like a Jewish
mind. For some people, emotions and sentiments
make logical reasoning almost impossible, whereas
others stoically repudiate emotionalism. But the sum-
mit towards which all believers strive is this union in
prayer.
Don't allow your sins to be a handicap in your
prayers. Jesus did all the good deeds you were intended
to do. God sees them as if they were yours. Don't let
yourself be troubled if biblical verses seem to indicate,
or even an angel of God were to assure you, that you are
not among those to whom divine favour is given. Even
if you were the most wicked person in the world, call
upon the holy name of Jesus and you will be saved. If
you call upon him only once after a lifetime full of sin,
heaven will be yours.
I know that there are many teachings in the Bible
and in the dogmas of the Church that do not make
things so easy, but remember that sick people in the
early stages can eat almost everything, whereas when
they are dying they can hardly sip a few drops of water.
The virtues of the first Christians, in the flush of their
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first love, are no longer the norm for the whole
Church. We live in the time of the end when the love of
many has waxed cold. God knows the difference and
asks only the invocation of the holy name: 'Whoever
calls on the name of the Lord shall be saved' (Acts
2.21).
In the hundreds of denominations that exist today,
dogmas are many and varied. There is scarcely a
layperson who can distinguish the right ones. No one
today knows all the commandments and injunctions,
nor do we have the power to fulfil them. Call upon the
name of the One who said, 'Father, I will that they also,
whom Thou hast given Me, be with Me where I am'
(John 17.24). Invoke the holy name of Jesus, relying on
the fact that the Father will fulfil his wish.
The Christ who vowed never to cast out a sinner
who comes to him, however bad they might be, has
guaranteed eternal life to all who call upon him. But do
so with the earnestness of one crying, 'SOS! Lord, save
me!' Yet don't despair if your prayer has not been so
earnest. You have called upon his name. The Bible
puts no condition that this call must be wholehearted.
While doing your best to ensure that the worshipper,
the prayer, and the worshipped become one, believe
nevertheless that the simple calling on his name has
saving power.

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The Simplicity of Moral
Problems
Moral problems are really not complicated. The first
Christians knew the answers. Pliny, a Roman gover-
nor in the second century, reported their standards to
the emperor: 'They bind themselves by an oath . . .
that they should never commit theft, robbery, or adul-
tery, that they would never break their word, and that
they would never deny a trust when called to give it
up.'
But it is not enough to do good. The good must also
be well done. Thérèse of Lisieux is beloved among
Christians not for any great deed but for the fact that
she did ordinary things in a grand manner.
To do a good thing well, imitate the sun, that simply
shines without waiting to be asked to impart light and
warmth. You too should do good as opportunity pres-
ents itself, without depending on another to challenge
or command you. The good that confronts you is God's
thought. It is the reason for your existence. Why do
you delay?
What is the good you should do? Whatever flows
naturally from the new heart you received at conver-
sion. You cannot find the rule for your attitudes in
generalities. It is not located in anything that can be
set next to the self and viewed objectively.
Jesus said, 'I am the truth.' The truth, while ulti-
mate, is not a generality. It cannot be anything but an
T. It is your T if you are Christlike.
It is well to have confidence in the new creature
within, for then your life will consist in doing in the
best manner the good works for which you have been
predestined by the Father. Therefore, without any
delay, be yourself.
A burglar was caught rifling a safe while the alarm
was clanging. His captors asked him why he had not
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fled. He replied that he was hard of hearing.
Life is short. Don't allow yourself to become deaf or
blind to the needs around you. While you must be
moral, general rules of morality are not always helpful
because you are a unique creation intended to fulfil
unique purposes. There is a specific role just for you
even at this very moment. Listen to the inner voice
and follow its leading.
Jeremiah predicted that God would make a new
covenant with his people. It specified that his law
would be written in their minds and hearts (Jeremiah
31.33).
Tamerlane, savage fourteenth-century conqueror,
said, 'Do you think I am only a man? I am the wrath of
God. ' This is frqw he viewed himself and this is how he
acted. We know we are children of God, whose name is
Love. Therefore, act accordingly.
There are ultrasonic generators that are supposed to
chase rats from a house through their unpleasant
'sounds'. Likewise the conscience of a child of God rids
us of the evil that presses around us.
A problem recognized and defined is a problem half
solved. Learn from your mistakes by analysing where
you go wrong. Stop for just a few seconds before you
act. The pause is part of the music of life, which is a
constant flow of good deeds. Six seconds can make an
incredible difference. Remember that you are called to
be like Christ, who could say, 'I am the truth/
Be the truth, since you have been created for truth. Lie
detectors and truth serum can detect the deep-seated
indicators which reveal the fact that one is lying. Such
apparatus reveals that adherence to truth and revulsion
at lying are deeply rooted in human nature. In modern
times we have proved with our technology that truth is
part of our creation by God and lying is from the devil,
'the father of lies' (John 8.44).
To be truly moral, withdraw yourself from evil
influences. Herod was a king in Christ's day whom
God had entrusted with a kingdom. Yet he was ready

to give away half of it for a dancer. Instead, he killed a
prophet because he allowed his wife to influence the
dancer, her daughter, who thus became an accomplice
in the murder of John the Baptist. How right was Jesus
when he said, 'He who loves father or mother. . . son
or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me' (Mat-
thew 10.37).
To be a hero for Christ, you need not go to a mission
field. Your family, factory, school, or office can be your
mission field. You can be grand in small things.
We know there exist sins of excess. Therefore the
Bible says, 'Be not righteous overmuch' (Ecclesiastes
7.14). There are also sins of omission. Many will go to
perdition for neglecting to help the poor and visit
prisoners.
The musical sign for atonement, for forgiveness, is
the 'natural' sign. A note that has been raised with a
'sharp' sign or lowered with a 'flat' returns to this
original pitch by virtue of the natural, which cancels
everything else. Likewise, when atonement inter-
venes, your sins of excess or default are cancelled, as if
they had never been committed.
To obtain atonement for your sins from an infinite
God and thus receive the promise of eternal lif e is the
supreme sign of morality.
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The Sin of Consistency
An individual need not be consistent with what he or
she has said, written or done in times past, otherwise
no growth would be possible, nor could a person adjust
to the demands of changing circumstances. The only
consistency required is the proper attitude towards
what one considers true, righteous and loving today.
The apostle Paul gives us examples of holy inconsis-
tency. One is the circumcision of his disciple Timo-
thy. Travelling around with an uncircumcised Gentile
convert would have hampered the work of evangeliza-
tion. The Jews who opposed him would have had one
more reason to denounce him as a traitor to the reli-
gion of his fathers. So foresight and caution were
necessary. Paul was dealing with people ready to
murder him, as he learned when they wrongly sug-
gested he had taken a Greek into the temple (Acts
21.29; 22.22).
But the same apostle adamantly refused to circum-
cise Titus (Galatians 2.3) when the danger of theologi-
cal confusion existed. He was concerned lest others
conclude that man is justified before God by rituals of
the Jewish law and not by faith alone.
Even the Jewish Christians considered Peter's eating
with an uncircumcised man (Acts 11.3) as a serious
violation of religious duty. Jesus himself said that he
had come only 'to the lost sheep of the house of Israel'
(Matthew 15.24), and yet all at once the door was
opened wide to the uncircumcised, without asking of
them even this token of holy alliance.
The Jewish Christians had become Christians be-
lieving that faith in Jesus was the holiest form of
Judaism and nothing more. They realized that if
circumcision were abolished, the Christian religion

would become universal and in time its Jewishness
would be absorbed.
Paul was given by God the task to make the Church
universal and therefore would not yield to pressure to
have Titus circumcised.
In the case of Timothy, Paul accommodated himself
prudently to circumstances without endangering the
establishment of a universal Church in which Jews
and Gentiles were alike. In the case of Titus, a princi-
ple was at stake. To concede that Titus must be
circumcised would have been an acknowledgement
that the sacrifice of Christ alone profits nothing unless
the Gentiles fulfilled Jewish ceremonies.
Paul had to assert the principle that in the Christian
Church 'there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcision
nor uncircumcision, barbarian, Scythian, bond nor
free, but that Christ is all in all' (Colossians 3.11).
If Paul had not been stubborn in certain circum-
stances, neither slavery nor the caste system would
ever have been abolished.
The same desire that made Paul stiff-necked in the
case of Titus made him pliable in the case of Timothy.
The apostle who wrote: 1 testify to every man that is
circumcised . .. Christ is become of no effect to you'
(Galatians 5.3,4) nevertheless circumcised a disciple.
Paul was not guilty of the grave sin of consistency
with his own beliefs at all times and in all circum-
stances.
Therefore, be careful of consistency at the expense
of adaptability, stubbornness at the expense of flexibil-
ity. Be consistent only in your desire for truth at all
times, but practising it with the least possible harm to
others.
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	10
The Commandment to Be
One
The structure of the English language makes an exact
translation of Genesis 1.9 impossible. A verbatim ap-
proximation would be as follows: 'Let gather together
[these three English words are one word in Hebrew] the
waters under the heaven.' Even before saying what is
involved, the commandment is, 'Let them be gathered
together'.
Our twentieth-century thinking is quite different.
We begin first by listing the things to be united. But the
simple act of naming them discourages us from gather-
ing them, and so we abandon our intention altogether.
God's command is, 'Let gather together'. Once all
the diverse elements are gathered, it is much simpler
to deal with them.
The waters under the heavens were gathered with a
certain purpose: to form one sea. (Incidentally, how did
Moses, who recorded this information, know that all
the waters formed one single sea? We learned this only
when Magellan made his discoveries.) Everything was
gathered to serve this purpose.
Today there are many stratagems and endeavours to
unify Christendom. We fail to succeed because it has
not yet been established for what purpose we want to
be one.
Jesus long ago designated the overriding reason for
unity: 'May they be one that the world may believe'
(John 17.21). Too many of us live very comfortably
even though the world is made up of unbelievers.
Their salvation is not our passion. Therefore our plans
for unity fail.
Once a little girl got lost in a huge wheat field, where
the wheat was taller than her. Her parents called all
the neighbours to help in the search, but in vain,
though they shouted and used torches. For two days
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and nights they hunted. Finally, on the third day the
father said to the townspeople, 'Let's all join hands and
go through the field in a line.' In no time the child was
found. Behind the operation was an anxious father and
a common purpose: the child had to be found.
Do we love the world with all our heart? Would we
be very unhappy if all but a few were lost? Of what
denomination were the people this father gathered to
seek his child? It would be foolish even to ask the
question. He gathered all who shared his burden and
were willing to help. This is what Jesus meant by being
one.
An Israeli army unit risked its life to save the Jews
hijacked in a plane that was forced down in Entebbe
(Uganda). When the rescue plane was on its way home,
soldiers and passengers alike sang together in Hebrew
Psalm 133: 'Behold, how good and pleasant it is for
brethren to dwell together in unity/ What were the
religious convictions of the rescuers? Who knows?
They belonged to a nation that had experienced the
loss of very many innocent victims and were united in
their determination to prevent the killing of more
Jews. They had a single purpose. Therefore unity was
established.
Untold millions - billions - have gone to the grave
without salvation because of our divisiveness. This
should no longer happen. Think in these terms and
your unity with all those who desire to see souls saved
will be established.
Several men sitting in a boat observed one of their
number boring a hole beneath his seat. 'Why are you
doing that?' one of his companions inquired. 'It's none
of your business, ' he replied. 'I'm boring the hole under
my seat.'
He was wrong, of course. The water entering
through 'his' hole would swamp the whole boat with
all its passengers.
Unity would be greatly served if Christians realized
what obsolete and often petty questions divided them.
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In 1845, 293 Baptists from the Southern states of the
USA severed ties with the Northern Baptists in protest
over the Yankees' refusal to allow a slaveholder to
become a missionary. Slavery has long since been
abolished. But today there are 13 million Southern
Baptists who continue to be divided from their
brethren. As a result of migration, there are now
Southern Baptist churches in Alaska near the North
Pole, but they are separated from their Northern
brethren. Does this make sense?
There is no place for freelancers and 'my-taste'
churches in Christendom. Those who love God and
mankind need to become one in heart today. The only
condition is that unity must be according to God's
holy Word, or there can be no peace. God's Word
should never be abandoned for unity's sake. But if we
are one in Christ, this unity will be revealed in our
relationship with others.

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About Being Narrow-minded
and Broad-minded
Narrow-mindedness is the object of much scorn.
When this takes the form of a joke, it may be accept-
able. It is said there was a sign in front of a motel in one
of the southern states of America that read, 'Rooms
cost $50 a day. For Baptists there is a reduction: they
pay only $25/ A traveller, indignant, protested: 'In
times past there was racial discrimination; now there
is denominational discrimination. Why should
Baptists pay only half?' The manager of the motel
answered, 'You know, in the South the Baptists are so
narrow, they sleep two in one bed.'
When we pass from jokes to reality, narrow-
mindedness becomes a virtue. In fact, the Bible en-
dorses it. Paul was so convinced that the gospel he
preached was sacrosanct that he wrote: 'Though we, or
an angel from heaven, preach any other Gospel to you
than that which we have preached unto you, let him be
accursed' (Galatians 1.8). He would not have joined
ecumenical councils with those who thought dif-
ferently in theological matters. He would consider
them 'accursed'. Today, believers are far removed
from this narrow thinking. Most consider broad-
mindedness a virtue to be praised.
John the Evangelist knew he had the doctrine, be-
sides which there was no other. Therefore he wrote, 'If
there come any unto you and bring not this doctrine [of
Christ], receive him not into your house, neither bid
him God speed' (2 John 10). He even adds (v.n), 'He
that bids him God speed is partaker of his evil deeds.'
He left little room for an ecumenical council. It is told
that Cerinthus, a heretic, once entered the house
where John was bathing, and the latter left his bath
naked and fled, not wishing to be under one roof with a
man of another doctrine.
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Luther warned, 'The peacock has the garb of an angel
and the song of a devil. He is the true picture of a
heretic. All heretics can look pious, even angelic/ He
was so narrow-minded that he refused to shake hands
with Zwingli. with whom he differed about the real
presence of Qirist in holy communion.
God is all-embracing, but his messengers have
always been one-sided. Rarely have they been cap-
able of teamwork. It could scarcely be otherwise,
because they have stood alone. Steel columns need no
wooden props. God's messengers are pillars in his
Church, supporting but unsupported. They can afford
to be narrow-minded because they need no one's
approval.
Narrow-mindedness does have its negative side,
however. Christians are taught to be hospitable. We
should be hospitable toward ideas, too, not only to-
ward people, because truth can never be the possession
of a single individual. The Church embraces all kinds
of individuals, with all sorts of experiences, in many
diverse cultures, throughout the centuries. It is ob-
vious they cannot all think alike in every detail.
But we proceed at our peril if we avoid narrow-
mindedness when we seek to pass through a strait gate
and walk on a narrow way. On the other hand, narrow-
mindedness can also hurt the truth.
It is wrong to be narrow-minded and also wrong to be
broad-minded. The T that asserts itself should not be. I
have to deny myself, denying also the T that denies.
As a person embraced by their beloved is no longer
conscious of an 'I' and a 'you', so the being embraced by
God is neither narrow- nor broad-minded. We lose our
'mindedness' in the holy embrace in which the Eternal
and the believer have become one. Here all distinc-
tions between broad-and narrow-mindedness lose
their significance, along with the distinction between
selfishness and unselfishness.
Why should we not be selfish when our self is God?
Why should we not be unselfish when nothing re-
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mains of our former self, so that we have nothing to
lose?
The one true doctrine, the one true gospel on which
Paul and John insisted was this doctrine of oneness
with God. Away with the speculations of righteous
men about a God outside themselves! T*hese specula-
tions, of narrow-minded bigot or broad-minded liberal,
will be false if there is no union with God, in whom
problems and divergences disappear.
Therefore don't be narrow-minded, and don't be
broad-minded either. Don't be! Blessed is the person
whose epitaph is like that of a saint of old: 'Hie jacet
nemo1. (Here lies no one.) Christ is all.
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The Little We Know
about God
The French say, 'Un dieu défini est un dieu fini.' (A
God whom you have defined is a God with whom you
have finished.) God cannot be defined or reduced to
finite descriptions. To say he is creator is to ignore the
fact that he is also sustainer and destroyer. He gives
life, but he also kills (i Samuel 2.6). God is love, but he
is also a righteous judge and the God who avenges
himself (Revelation 19.2).
It is impossible to describe the fullness of God,
because human beings have no frame of reference
within which to compare God as he really is with the
God we encompass in words. We need to be aware of
this difference, even when we say something as simple
as 'God is love'. Love is a sentiment common to
humans and even some animals. Does any believer
consider God a sentiment? To rely on mere words for
an understanding of God is like clutching a piece of
carbon and calling it a diamond, or scratching a shoe
when the foot itches.
Speculations about God can be very hazardous. He is
called the Father. His Hebrew name El is masculine.
But the feminine form Elah also occurs in Scripture ( 1
Samuel 17.9). God compares himself with a woman in
Isaiah 49.15: 'Can a woman forget her sucking child,
that she should have no compassion on the son of her
womb? Yea, they may forget, yet I will not forget thee.'
Jesus said, 'He who has seen me has seen the Father'
(John 14.9). Was the Father seen in all the circum-
stances of Jesus' life? How about his unprovoked out-
bursts of anger? On one occasion, a Pharisee who had
invited Jesus to dinner wondered why he was not
washing his hands before eating. But he marvelled
without saying anything critical. Jesus, knowing his
thoughts, used the occasion to condemn all Pharisees,
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calling them 'hypocrites'. A lawyer tried to appease
him, and he turned on lawyers, accusing them, with
the Pharisees, of 'the blood of all the prophets. . . from
the blood of Abel to the blood of Zechariah' (Luke
11.37-52). Surely they were innocent; in fact, there
were no lawyers and Pharisees when Abel was killed.
Now, such behaviour on the part of Jesus is ques-
tionable at best. But a little thought will indicate that
it makes sense. He came to this earth to die for human-
kind. He wanted to be crucified, because the cross was
the only way to achieve their salvation from sin. In
order to be crucified, he had to be hated. He apparently
worked consciously at this. Otherwise why did he heal
chronic diseases on the Sabbath when any day of the
week would have sufficed? Why cure a man paralysed
for thirty-eight years on the one day that would incur
the wrath of the priests and Pharisees?
Why were his rebukes so unsparing, so harsh, even if
justified? Would not mild rebukes have been more
effective? Or did he constantly have in mind a cruel
death that presupposed bitter hatred among those who
killed him?
To return to the original question, did Jesus repres-
ent the Father by hardening the hearts of men against
himself? Scripture often records that God hardened
the hearts of sinners. Does he actually want to be hated
by some? Was his being despised and rejected a con-
tinual sacrifice, ultimately beneficial to mankind?
Does God want us to emulate Jesus' attitudes on all
occasions? Meister Eckhart wrote, 'God can no more
do without us than we can do without him.' Would
God's children be more useful to him if they were
despised and abhorred rather than successful and
admired? There are many questions to ponder.
We have to confess we know little about God, but
knowing he exists frees us. We can resign as general
managers of the universe.
He has created us and our universe, and even if we
don't always feel his presence, we can enjoy what he
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has given us: air, earth, sky, his creatures. Every ray of
sunshine, every wind, every drop of dew, every leaf and
flower all speak of him. And so also do love and sorrow,
discoveries and failures, agonies and ecstasies, know-
ledge and the hope to understand later what is obscure
for us today.
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We and Our Enemies
It is almost impossible for consistent Christians not to
have enemies. Because they love the sheep, they shout
against the wolves that would destroy them. Some-
times in their zeal to protect the sheep they prefer
shooting to shouting, destroying to denouncing. This
is how they gain enemies.
We should not avoid having enemies at any cost, but
we should not make them unnecessarily. It is foolish
to make adversaries of those who could be friends.
Some unwisely enter into controversy even with their
partners in faith. Even saints know only in part (i
Corinthians 13.12), which means that each might see a
different part. Therefore divergences arise. It is import-
ant not to cultivate a talent for controversy in matters
in which both parties might be right. At such times it
is more useful to mend than to meddle.
There are a few psychological observations that
need to be considered. First, that creative artists do not
readily accept one another. They are lonely peaks. The
same is true of great religious personalities. Luther
would not shake hands with Zwingli, and he despised
Erasmus of Rotterdam. Wesley could not go along with
Whitefield. But not to go along with someone else does
not oblige one to be at loggerheads with them.
Second, that every evidence of superiority engenders
jealousy and often hate. Among those who cannot
understand a work of art, a certain number become
critics for hire. To condemn is much easier than to
comprehend.
The impressionist painters Monet, Renoir, and
Cézanne were called mad, loathsome. The public spat
at their pictures. They did not appreciate the fact that
these new artists painted washerwomen instead of
royalty, haystacks instead of palaces. The artists rarely
sold a painting. Today their canvases fetch millions.
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What a catastrophe it would have been if they had spent
their time answering their critics! Instead, they
painted. There was no weather rough enough to keep
Monet from painting outside. He painted on the ice of
the Seine, warming his fingers with water from a bottle.
Last century's greatest preacher, Charles Spurgeon,
was criticized by the leaders of the Baptist Union of
Britain because he was big and they were dwarfs. But
he quietly gathered scores of thousands for Christ. We
are makers of saints, not wrestlers. A worker for Christ
should accept such conflicts without elaborating on
them or entering into useless disputes.
On the other hand, if you have to contend with
wolves that seek to ravage the flock, then do battle
confidently. If you are on God's side, your triumph is
sure. You can be wounded by the foe, you cannot be
destroyed. Your triumph is sure if you counter the
depths of weakness with the wings of faith.
Your triumph is sure if you value the slander against
you that resembles truth as your shadow resembles
you. At least the contours are real. Slander can serve a
good purpose by warning you against the real sins to
which you may be exposed.
Your triumph is sure if you don't stoop to using the
strategies of your adversaries. Never be hateful like
them. Find excuses for them in an attempt to under-
stand the 'why' of their positions. Never exploit their
personal sins in order to demean their stand on matters
of principle. Remember that you have your own fail-
ings before God. If salvation depended on merit, who
would escape the pit?
It is said that Conan Doyle sent the following cable
to twenty people in public life: 'Everything known;
disappear/ All disappeared. Would you have escaped?
Then don't uphold sins against others; uphold others,
even your adversaries, against their sins.
Armed with such thoughts, you are free to fight for
the word of God and for the sheep of his pasture. You
will conquer.
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The Matter of Compromise
Shall we compromise? This is an everyday problem for
individual Christians and churches.
Matteo Ricci went to China, mastered classical
Chinese, dressed in the garb of a mandarin, and pre-
sented Christianity as the fulfilment of Confucianism,
whose traditions he allowed to continue. The Jesuits
went so far as to use the character tsi, the Chinese
description of the ceremonies of ancestor-worship, to
translate the word 'mass' in their catechism. The
formidable power of the non-Christian religions ren-
ders any other approach difficult and almost imposs-
ible.
William Lucas, Anglican bishop of Masasi
(Tanzania) from 1926 to 1944, rejected the old view
that the religious systems of 'savages' were the work of
the devil and regarded them rather as a preparation for
their eventual fulfilment in Christ. The majority of
evangelical missionaries, however, have been at the
opposite pole. They proclaimed essentially that 'to
walk with Christ means to behave like a white man'.
There is something to be said for compromise.
Galileo declared on his knees before his inquisitors
that he was wrong in claiming the earth moved around
the sun. The sun continued to do so in spite of his
recantation, and he was able to continue his scientific
work for years. Giodanbo Bruno, on the other hand,
remained firm and died for his scientific convictions,
which he had no time to work out. Who was right?
If you can conquer through compromise, by all
means do so. Don't allow the enemy to turn you easily
into a martyr.
Joseph could not have been prime minister of Egypt
or Daniel of Babylon without some sort of compro-
mise. Both accepted rule of a country in which there
existed   idolatry   and   injustice   under   absolute
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monarchs. The lions' den into which Daniel was
thrown was surely used for others, who may have been
innocent victims like himself. He must have had to
acquiesce to, or at least overlook, many practices
abhorrent to his belief in God and his knowledge of
God's requirements for his earthly kingdom.
Much good can get lost in search of unrealizable,
ideal solutions. Daniel could not bring about God's
kingdom on earth, whereas by standing in high places
near the ruling tyrant he could save from death at least
a few innocents. More than that, he was able to speak
about God to the mighty Nebuchadnezzar, architect of
the famous hanging gardens of Babylon (Daniel 4).
Jesus was told about a cruel act of the Roman gover-
nor Pontius Pilate, who had killed innocent Galileans
who had come to worship in the Temple. To condemn
Pilate's crime publicly would not have restored the
victims to life and would have put a premature end to
the Saviour's ministry. So he chose to respond with a
general teaching that all men are sinners and will
perish if they don't repent.
No human being or institution can escape the need
for occasional compromise, but let us also be aware of
its dangers. In 1933, German Christians had a national
convention in the presence of Goehring, Hitler's aide.
The purpose of the gathering was to purify the Church
of Jewish elements and the Old Testament of 'immoral
Jewish stories'.
To its shame, the Church compromised with
Nazism. In every such situation there arises in the
minds of believers the question whether such devia-
tions from the truth have not happened in past cen-
turies as well. A Church that takes a firm, clear-cut
stand is surely more reliable.
As individuals and as churches we are faced with
having to choose, at turning-points in our lives, the
right course to follow. Abraham, while blessed of God,
was not always obliged to make the heroic choice, nor
on the other hand the devious way of accommodation.
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He was free to choose as occasion demanded. Occa-
sionally his choices were wrong, as when he compro-
mised Sarah in Egypt. But his underlying choice was
always for God.
'Once to every man and nation comes the moment
to decide, in the strife of truth with falsehood, for the
good or evil side/ wrote the poet James Russell Lowell.
When the alternatives present themselves, the choice
has to be made. Let us make it under the guidance of
the Holy Spirit and choose the side of good, of God.
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The Search for Truth
We begin the search for truth without the slightest
proof that such an entity has ever existed or still exists.
We might imagine that if there was a truth it must
have been killed long ago. Jesus asserted, 'I am the
truth', and he was crucified.
I once dreamt that some men were quarrelling for a
white horse that represented the truth. One man cut it
in pieces, which meant it ceased to exist. Then they
quarrelled for the pieces of the dead horse. I received
the head and was proud until I realized it was the head
of a corpse. At that point I awoke.
Nothing is easier than to deceive searchers for truth.
At the University of California, an actor was once
engaged to deliver a lecture on medicine, a subject
about which he knew nothing. The bogus professor was
highly appreciated when he spoke eloquently about
'zen-sum' areas and the usefulness of the opera .Tosca
for the study of medicine. Even after the audience was
told about the hoax people continued to believe they
had learned a lot. We can be seduced by the music of
what we hear even if the content is sheer nonsense.
The best and most scholarly sermon may fail to
convict if the preacher has an unpleasant voice, is
unkempt, or has a stain on his cassock, all of which can
distract his hearers' attention.
Who can tell the whole truth? One can never expect
exactness from lovers describing the beloved nor an
accurate description of truth from one whom it crit-
icizes. You cannot objectively describe someone who
hit you in the face when you're seeing stars before your
eyes and your ears tingle. The great events of life,
whether pleasant or unpleasant, cannot be the object
of protocol. The differences in the Gospels simply
show how overwhelmed the Evangelists were by their
encounter with Jesus.
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Often, individuals err because they are not attentive
to the difference between truth and fact.
The title of Psalm 52 says it was written by David
when a certain Doeg told Saul that David, a fugitive
from the king, had been received by the hig1^ priest
Abimelech, who provided him with food. Doeg had
denounced a man who was unrighteously persecuted,
and his denunciation led to the killing of many inno-
cents by an enraged Saul. In verse 3, the psalmist says
to Doeg, 'Thou lovest lying rather than to speak right-
eousness/ We would have said that Doeg had told King
Saul 'the truth', since he recounted what had actually
taken place, but a truth that is harmful to God's elect is
a lie, according to the Bible.
The wise man compares truth with 'apples of gold'
(Proverb 25.11). Better than seeking the truth is seek-
ing reality about which the truth speaks. A golden
apple can be only an ornament. If you are hungry you
must sell it in order to have something to eat. We must
sell words, even truthful words, in order to have the
reality they express.
If we do so, we will recognize that we cannot depend
on our good pleasure to know truth. Truth is not the
object that we as subject must seek. There exists an
eternal truth whose object we ourselves are. We were
created by Christ, who is the truth. Before the founda-
tion of the world he chose who would be possessors of
truth. He, the truth, has come to seek those lost to the
truth. We should not be subjects of the searching, but
objects, awaiting the divine seeking.
In the beginning was the Word, not any word, but
the one true, reliable Word, and this Word was with
God, and this Word was God. This Word became flesh
in the person of Jesus Christ, who communicates with
us of his own free will. He is love, and love infuses
truth in us. It becomes ours by faith and not by intel-
lectual search and investigation.
After that, other advances await us. At primary
school children are taught to print letters. But if they
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continue to write like that as teenagers, they would be
considered backward.
In the beginning, you have to establish who is the
subject and who the object in the search for truth. You
will come to know what an enemy the intellect is, that
discriminates subject from object. It is a distinction
that the conscious mind makes, but the conscious is
only a part of our spiritual being. We have to explore
the unconscious as well to achieve completeness. In
the unconscious, subject and object are one, and only
this oneness can possess the truth.
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About Suffering
Don't despair when the stars set. It is a sign that the
sun will soon rise. Don't despair when devastating
winds blow. Storms pass over the garden of Christ only
to spread its perfume. Dante wrote about 'the good
suffering that remarries us to God'. When Shakespeare
lost love, friendship and health, he wrote The Tem-
pest. Humankind would have been poorer without it.
In times of suffering, it is best just to keep quiet.
When Jephthah told his daughter that he had promised
to sacrifice her to God, her answer was, 'If thou hast
opened thy mouth unto the Lord, do to me according to
that which has proceeded out of thy mouth' (Judges
11.36). When your heavenly Father decides to sacrifice
you, your joy, your health, your liberty, your position,
for some mysterious purpose of his, be like Jephthah's
daughter even if you do not understand his purposes.
Remember that from the burning ovens of Auschwitz,
where Jews suffered, and from Communist and Mus-
lim jails, in which Christians still suffer for their faith,
beacons of warning and hope shine.
Remain quiet during the time of deepest suffering,
when a loved one dies. Jesus said to his disciples on the
occasion of the Last Supper, 'It is expedient for you
that I go away' (John 16.7). These words might be said
about everyone who dies.
God loves you. Why would he allow you to lose
someone precious if it were not for your good and
theirs? Those who live in the invisible world of the
spirit view the death of a friend as a release, not as a
separation. Those who die pass from shadows and
images to truth. Even those in hell finally know the
truth.
When John Chrysostom arrived after a three-month
journey at Comana, the place to which he had been
deported, Basilicus, who had been martyred there,
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appeared to him in vision saying, 'Courage, brother,
tomorrow we will be together/ He died the next day
saying as his last words, 'Glory to God, Amen.' In
psychological depths inaccessible to our conscious-
ness, the dead whom we mourn might have had a
similar vision.
Face everything quietly. When the stars set, the sun
rises.
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The Angels of Suffeiing
'The Lord sent fiery serpents among the people'
(Numbers 21.6). What does this Bible verse mean?
Fiery serpents as such do not exist. In fact, the Hebrew
original has no such expression. Instead, we read,
'Nahashim seraphim'. Nahashim means 'serpents',
and seraphim is the word for a special class of angels.
So the serpents that bit the Jews were in reality embod-
iments of angels of God. John in Revelation describes
four beasts, one like a lion, the second like a calf, the
third like an eagle, and the fourth like a man (Revela-
tion 4.6-8). So angels can have the forms of animals.
Why not the shape of a serpent? The psalmist says,
'The angel of the Lord encamps round about them that
fear him' (Psalm 34.7). Only if he has the shape of a
serpent can he do this.
The serpents that hurt the Jews were either angels of
God or beings directed by them. From this we learn to
see our friends the angels behind even serious troubles.
God writes straight on crooked lines. The most
adverse happenings in the lives of his children work
together for good. Not every Christian is ready to break
his bottle of perfume to anoint Jesus, as did Mary
Magdalene. If angels did not break our bottles by giving
us suffering, the fragrance would not be released.
Therefore, don't murmur and complain when a
cross is given to you. Atrocious suffering defies explan-
ation. Rather, ask what is the purpose of the cross. Is it
not to make us angel-like? A cross can be a splendid
opportunity. When Jesus was crucified, he hung
between two thieves. One asked to be taken down
from the cross, the other to be taken up. Suffering
provides us with the same choice.
Those who wish to be taken up do not denounce
those who have done mischief to them; they don't
even wonder about the hardships of life. They know
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we are a sentenced race. God said to Adam, 'In sorrow
you shall eat of the ground all the days of your life'
(Genesis 3.17). We should be thankful for the few days
without hardship.
The person who 'goes up' when suffering asks, 'Do I
deserve better? Have I fulfilled the commandments
that are connected to blessings?' They say what the
repentant thief said to the unrepentant who cursed:
'Do you not fear God, seeing you are in the same
condemnation? And we indeed justly, for we receive
the due reward of our deeds, but this man [Jesus] has
done nothing amiss' (Luke 23.41).
The Christian is free from the curse of sin through
the atoning sacrifice of Christ. The evils we encounter
are unfinished good. Whenever we weep a tear, a gem
is added to our crown.
The suffering saints are the jewels of the Church. In
a dream I once saw myself in a chapel. All those at the
altar and in the front rows wore plain clothes. Only the
sick and the poor in the rear wore priestly ornaments.
The suffering saints are the teachers, those at ease the
learners.
Don't be afraid to suffer.
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= 18
Shaiing His Divinity
Jesus should not be an unknown person remote from
us. To bring him nearer, we should love everyone,
whatever their defects, as if they were Jesus; listen to
every word, even if it is sinful and blasphemous, as if it
were a prayer, in consideration of the suffering and
ignorance from which it springs; and behave in every
place as if it were heaven.
Remember first of all that Jesus lived the life of a
man from an oppressed class in an oppressed nation,
that he therefore has close ties with all the oppressed
and sees in those who hunger, thirst, are naked, im-
prisoned, and injured his little brothers and sisters.
This will familiarize you with Jesus.
The Holy Spirit is compared in Scripture to rivers of
living water. We can swim in them as in the ocean,
because these rivers are accessible to everyone. But if
we have the wrong attitude, we can swim through
them like submarines in the sea, sealed off from their
healing influence and encased in our own atmosphere.
The Roman philosopher of antiquity Cato said long
ago, The soul of a lover lives in another's body.' Jesus
is the supreme lover. You don't have to seek him far.
He lives within you, as you live in him, if you are his.
This oneness with him gives a person the sense of
utter freedom from another's judgements. What do the
opinions of others count if Jesus7 contemporaries
called him a devil, a madman, a being with an unclean
spirit?
Belief in him also unites you in fellowship with
other believers throughout the whole world, even if
they differ from you. They might not witness openly
for the faith as you do, but this does not make them
inferior. Jesus had his hidden disciples who, while
hiding their faith, were still considered his.
Nicodemus and Joseph of Arimathea were among

them. The apostle John could not have trumpeted his
faith in Jerusalem or he would never have been in such
good standing with the high priest Caiaphas that he
was allowed to enter the heavily guarded temple with
his friend Peter during Jesus' trial. Such a privilege was
granted only to those considered reliable by the high
priest. Under the circumstances, a known disciple of
Jesus would not have been admitted.
You will have the friendship not only of those who
say they are Christians, but also of those who do not
make this public confession. You will have the fellow-
ship of people of other persuasions who also love Jesus.
A blind man healed by the Saviour was asked, 'What do
you say of him that has opened your eyes?' His only
answer was, 'He is a prophet' (John 9.17). Reformed
Jews, Unitarians, and Muslims could subscribe to this
statement. The healed blind man did not believe in
Jesus according to the Athanasian creed, but neither
did anyone else in the first centuries of the Christian
Church. Yet they were disciples and were received by
God as such. Those who may not understand the
development of Christology in the Church will be
your friends, too.
The blind man's intuition about who Jesus was
might have been deficient, but he had the right spirit.
He expressed only thankfulness to God for having
been healed, without reproaching his Creator for his
previous blindness.
What reproaches can a lover bring against the be-
loved? Desdemona did not rebuke Othello even for
killing her, but continued to love him. This is the logic
of romance, and no romance could ever equal that
between the believing soul and the Man of Calvary.
All are called to become his brides. He excludes no
one but those who exclude themselves. Our sinfulness
is no hindrance, since our guilt has been transferred to
the Son of God. To make us clean, He declared himself
guilty for what we have done. There is no barrier
between us.
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An identification between Christ and the individual
takes place. God said to Abraham, 'In thee shall all
families of the earth be blessed' (Genesis 12.3). The
Messiah, Abraham's descendant, is here intended, but
the Bible makes no distinction between him and his
ancestor. When you are blessed in Jesus, you are
blessed in Abraham and vice versa. The first Chris-
tians had a proverb: 'Whoever sees a brother sees God.'
Jesus is ever willing to share his divinity with
humanity. In fact, he often speaks about himself in the
third person. When we do so, we are using his own
language, though it is best to think about him as our 'I'.
In loving him, we love the best that is in us. Incred-
ibly, the weaker our love and the greater the danger
that we might lose it altogether, the more saving grace
is granted, until we become one with him, as he and
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Attitude towards Law
There are two kinds of law: those made by people, and
those for which people are made. The latter come from
God and must take precedence.
Such commandments are, however, individualized.
The Lord said to John, 'Write the things which thou
hast seen' (Revelation 1.19J. Paul, on the other hand,
heard in heaven 'unspeakable words, which it is not
lawful for a man to utter' (2 Corinthians 12.4). We can
only hint at the main characteristics of such forbidden
words: they always have a dual character.
One and the same biblical word expressed the plus
and the minus, the positive and the negative. For
instance, the Greek word afes, used in the Lord's
Prayer for 'forgive us our trespasses', means also 'to
leave'. Thus we have two sides within us: one desires
to keep sins because they are sweet; another wants to
get rid of them. When you recite the 'Our Father' in the
original Greek, both sides of your personality have had
their say: 'Leave us our trespasses' and 'Forgive us. . . '
Such words are difficult for the nonspiritual to com-
prehend.
God's laws have a dual character. On one side is the
law of love. Since we live in a doomed world, mutual
understanding is in the supreme interest of the whole
of mankind. We must unite and love each other even
where union seems illogical. Two enemies on a sink-
ing ship should at least unite their efforts so that they
can survive to continue their quarrel.
Whoever stands for love between races, nations,
religions, parties, classes, generations or individuals,
and suffers for this cause resembles Christ, regardless
of their convictions in matters of faith.
Love is in our best interest even if it brings suffering,
first of all because love is more beautiful than hatred. It
is good to give to the poor, not only for the sake of the
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poor but because wealth destroys character and often
denies one entrance into heaven.
If several individuals plot to slander you, go along
with them. No one believes the self-accusations of a
person who claims to be evil. Jesus said, 'Agree with
your adversary quickly, while you are on the way with
him7 (Matthew 5.25).
Love your enemies too. If you cannot forgive them
for Christ's sake, then do so for the sake of your
gallbladder and stomach. Kindness is never wasted. At
the very least it profits the giver. Anyone who does not
forgive burns the bridge over which they will have to
pass. None of us can enter heaven except as forgiven
sinners.
Know yourself and acknowledge that if it is difficult
for you to forgive an enemy's mistake, the reason
could be that your enemy has witnessed your own.
Love is the law for which we were made.
This is one aspect of what you hear in heaven. There
exists another side to the matter.
Only fools are honest with the dishonest. A
policeman who made it a principle to deal honestly
with terrorists, spies, and drug-smugglers would never
catch a criminal. There cannot exist one general rule of
behaviour towards all men. With some we have to use
cunning.
The Lord teaches us to be as wise as serpents (Mat-
thew 10.16). The New Testament employs here the
same word used in the Septuagint for the devil in
Genesis 3.1. He meant that we should at least equal
the devils in wisdom, though of another quality.
Wisdom will sometimes make us add to the com-
mon law. God told Adam not to eat of the tree of the
knowledge of good and evil (Genesis 2.17). Apparently
Adam then instructed weaker Eve, Tou shall not eat
of it, neither shall you touch it' (Genesis 3.1). This is
how we have to instruct those who are young in the
faith. We raise a fence around the commandments and
add other restrictions.
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Wisdom occasionally obliges us to enlarge the pos-
sibilities of action. One need not feel guilty for telling
an untruth in favour of the persecuted. Undue sym-
pathy for criminals can become a crime in itself by
encouraging their behaviour. There can be no peace in
a state without putting down rebellion.
'The Lord raised unto the children of Israel a deliv-
erer, Ehud' (Judges 3.15). This man, a left-handed
Benjaminite, used deceit to kill their oppressor. To
judge his deed, we have to remember that he was raised
up as a deliverer by God. Origen says the very name of
Ehud means 'glory', and Ehud is the male form of
Jehudah, the name of God's land.
Ehud killed the tyrant Eglon with his left hand. He
had hidden his dagger upon his right thigh, where it
would have passed unobserved. In the biblical Greek
the word for 'left' is aristeros, which means 'the
noblest' side. The infirmity of Ehud became an instru-
ment of God. To obtain a private audience with the
king, he said, 'I have a message from God unto thee'
(Judges 33.20). Eglon arose from his seat to show re-
spect when he heard the name 'God', and in that
moment he was killed.
Origen, one of the famous teachers of the Church,
praises the prevarications of Ehud. St Basil the Great
also considers Ehud's lie justified. The law of God has a
dual character. A state of war frees one from the
obligation of truthfulness. This rule stands as well for
the war in which the Church is engaged in countries
with religious persecution.
Mahatma Gandhi said he would not tell a lie even if
by so doing they could save the souls of the whole
world. This is wrong. Love is better than truth. The
law of love is two-sided.
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Not Acting
The predominant question in the minds of many be-
lievers is simply: What is the right course of action to
follow? The right course may very well be not to act.
Jesus might have asked the Father this question
when he received the reply, 'Sit thou at my right hand,
until I make thine enemies thy footstool' (Psalm
iio.i). This did not mean sitting quietly for a short
period but for thousands of years while the enemies
continued to poison humankind with lying doctrines,
destroy millions of believers, and bring unspeakable
suffering upon the whole creation.
What should one do when confronted with a drama
of such proportions? Before expecting an answer to
such a question, ask yourself if it is legitimate, if it is
proper, to do anything. God is not always impressed
with our doings. His advice is 'Sit'.
This is a teaching, not a law. The Hebrew word
Torah, the name for the five books of Moses, means
'teaching'. It has been falsely translated as 'law' in the
Greek version of the Old Testament known as the
Septuagint. Generally, the Bible does not impose com-
mandments; rather, it gives counsel about the best
way to follow God's desires. It even provides several
options.
Patience must not mean passiveness. If the psalmist
says 'Sit', it does not mean you should do nothing.
Many good works can be done with a relaxed spirit and
relaxed muscles, just as one sits.
Do what you need to do, but do so remaining com-
fortable, at ease, not worrying if others will approve
your actions. To reach an objective you might have to
apply methods some people will not appreciate. The
main test is whether you bring home your trophy.
Before asking yourself what you should do, decide
whether you can do it with peace of mind. God kept
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the Sabbath. A person who believes that he can do
anything useful without keeping the Sabbath fools
himself. When God created the world and organized it,
he knew that Adam and Eve were in great danger,
because the serpent was in Eden. Notwithstanding, he
rested. You can do the same.
You may say you are in great shape and need no rest.
But what if the Sabbath needs you? The Talmud says
that the days of the week once put their case to God.
Sunday had Monday as a friend, Tuesday had Wednes-
day, Thursday was on good terms with Friday. Only
Saturday was alone. So God gave his holy people to be
the Sabbath's friend. You might not need rest, but rest
needs you. Rest not for your own sake, but in order that
rest, repose, and quietness might not feel rejected and
abandoned. The Sabbath will reward your love and
will make the smallest deeds fruitful.
Because we do not rest properly, we improvise.
Abraham was in a hurry to fulfil God's promise and so
procreated a son by Hagar instead of waiting for God's
timing - and the world even today is paying the price.
But God keeps his promises and can provide an heir in
old age. Right actions can wait. We can take our time.
It is better not to attempt too many different enter-
prises, but rather to do one good thing over and over
until we can do it really well. John Wesley as a boy was
not good at mathematics. Once he asked his mother
the same question twenty times. His father got angry
at her: 'Stop repeating the same thing. You have
already given him the answer nineteen times.' His
mother replied, 'Isn't it better to say it twenty times,
instead of allowing the nineteen efforts to be lost?'
Don't look into any textbook or code to inspire you
to right actions. Saul was the king, so Doeg was loyal
to him. He told the king the truth about David and his
companions and added that they had been fed at the
house of Abimelech, the high priest. But the inspired
writer calls him a liar and a lover of evil. In God's eyes
it is a lie to make a truthful denunciation to the
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legitimate king if he is a tyrant rejected by God.
God promises you a new heart. If you don't feel
entitled to one, then take it from him by force. The
Lord says, The kingdom of heaven suffers violence,
and the violent take it by force' (Matthew 11.12). Once
the kingdom of heaven is within, you will need no
textbooks to guide you. Know that even in the Bible
some commandments are given in irony, such as 'Fill
up the measure of your fathers' (Matthew 23.32). Go
after your new character, not after verses.
A word of caution is in order. Be aware of the fact
that as often as you do something amiss, Jesus is asked,
'Why do thy disciples transgress?' (Matthew 15.2).
This question is posed even now in heaven. Don't put
him in an embarrassing situation.
Don't spend a lot of time trying to decide what to do.
Jesus says, 'Take the fish that first comes up' (Matthew
17.27). You might find it difficult just to sit still. But if
you can, it will be your first opportunity to do quietly
something that is the right action for you.

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Right Actions
If you have good intentions, it is advisable not to try
and implement them immediately with good deeds.
These may be premature.
A tin soldier once wanted to change the world so
that everyone would be happy, but he forgot he was
made of cheap metal. As soon as he entered the fire of
battle, he melted. Changing yourself is more difficult
than changing the world. To do so you must be made of
very resistant material.
First, you must be a new person who has repented of
your sins. The author of the rabbinical book Levitic
Rabba writes,
Whence is it derived that if one repents it is imputed
to him as if he had gone up to Jerusalem, built the
Temple, erected an altar, and offered upon it all the
sacrifices enumerated in the Law? From the text,
'The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit7 (Psalm
51.17).
Then, begin by offering to God the sacrifice of a broken
spirit.
The German philosopher Karl Jaspers said, 'Crucial
for man is his attitude toward failure, because the way
in which man approaches his failure determines what
he will become.'
Before starting to perform any good deed, acknow-
ledge that past actions have been wrong. Repent of
them and believe that Jesus' sacrifice has erased them
and all their evil consequences. Then you are ready to
proceed. But always remember that even the new
creature is only human, limited not only by the flow of
external circumstances, but also by an inner stream
with a predetermined bed, the only channel in which it
can flow.
The French have an expression 'violon d'Ingres'.
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Ingres was a gifted painter, whose few creations are in
the Louvre. They are few because he believed himself
to be a violinist. The tragedy is that when he played the
instrument, all the neighbours had to plug their ears,
so unbearable was his musicianship. Ingres was a man
who did not know his talent.
It is important that you know what is possible for
you and what is not.
Eisenhower told Khrushchev, 'In our country we are
all equal. Anyone can become president.' The dictator
pointed to a man who was just sweeping the garden in
front of the White House and asked, 'Can you really
assert that such a person can become president?'
Eisenhower replied, 'Not this man; he sweeps against
the wind.'
Every human being has certain possibilities, certain
doors to which he has the key. Other doors are com-
pletely closed to him. Jesus says again and again, 'Go
your way!' Your way is the only one in which you can
be successful.
Don't try to change your behaviour. Actions are the
shadow cast by a personality. Spend all such endeav-
ours in changing your personality.
Work at this quietly. There is no hurry. There is no
great distance to traverse. Even if you have committed
atrocious crimes you are not far from God. Jesus tells
us about a son who forsook his father 'and took his
journey into a far country' (Luke 15.13). Such a journey
is possible on earth, but which country or state of soul
is far from the heavenly Father?
We are called to enter a place we never left. The
return is easy. When the prodigal son 'came to himself'
(v. 17), very soon he also found himself in his father's
arms. What you really need to know is that 'the king-
dom of heaven is at hand' (Matthew 3.2).
Once this realization is clear, you don't have to
worry yourself interminably about which actions are
right. Whether working in a factory or in a kitchen,
you can do the will of Christ by giving a cup of water to
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a thirsty soul. No exceptional deeds are required.
To offer some cool water to a child is a very good
Christian action. Why do we ask ourselves compli-
cated questions about what deeds are acceptable?
You cannot keep life alive without letting it live. Let
things happen. Don't try to control the universe. Serve
the little world around you. A child happens to enter
your home. Caress the little one before discussing your
business with his parents. You might be a waitress in a
restaurant. Serve the customers well. Smile at them.
No more right actions are needed.
In whatever you do, keep the great hope. We are not
what we are but what we are becoming. We are prepar-
ing in menial tasks for a greater calling, to 'serve him
day and night in his temple' (Revelation 7.15).
Prepare yourself decidedly for this. In Christ there
exists only an 'either/or', never an 'as well as'.
We live in a doomed world. We travel in a sinking
ship. Don't analyse the chemical constituents of the
water pouring in. Remain quietly on board, fulfilling
faithfully your sailor's duty, and prepare for the last
swim to the other shore.
Love all those around you, who are so terribly endan-
gered. No one is accepted unless the worst in them is
accepted. Love all people just as they are and don't
worry about what good deeds to perform. St Augustine
wrote, 'Love and do what you like.'
It requires great discipline to be simple. The
simplest action is the right one.
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Having Jesus at His Best
The Evangelists record that Jesus healed a man
possessed by demons. They say not one word about how
he had come to be possessed by unclean spirits. For
them, only his encounter with Jesus is important. He is
presented as a man without biography. We know
nothing about his past or his family, nor are we informed
about what he did after his brief hour with Jesus.
Perhaps in heaven only the minutes we have spent
in intimate contact with Jesus will count.
Come to Jesus, and you will discover that you have
fulfilled the aim of your life. Come, accepting all he did
and does, all he said and says, all he promised, threat-
ened, commanded, and attested by his life.
The manner in which you come will show your
intent. Men came to the Garden of Gethsemane with
lanterns and torches (John 18.3), which were needed to
prevent a false arrest. Today, some approach him with
the lights of reason and science, which are indispens-
able in preventing errors in judgement. But lovers
prefer darkness. They come to him without torches,
which reveal only the outer man. A lover seeks the real
person. Only lovers can know him as he really is.
And what if in the darkness of night they embrace
another by mistake? It matters not, because they were
destined from the beginning to love not only him but
all beings.
The Lord forbade people on several occasions to
spread the news that he was the Messiah, because he
knew his time had not come. But at a deeper level, he
wanted to teach his disciples that men and women can
be with him not only when they know they have Jesus
with them. They could be with him when in the
company of any poor, oppressed, or holy being.
Angelus Silesius wrote, 'Man, if you love some-
thing, you love nothing. God is not this and that;
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therefore, leave the "something"/ St John of the Cross
also worried: 'If you stop at something, you are no
more committed to the whole.'
Only lovers can explain the enigma: Is Jesus in truth
the same yesterday, today, and forever? La the past, he
could not bear to see men who might faint because
they had nothing to eat, and so he fed them mirac-
ulously. Today millions starve. It is not that they faint;
they die. Why does he not come to their aid?
Jesus always has the same answer to social prob-
lems. The disciples asked him, 'Where can we find
bread here in the wilderness for thousands of people?'
His reply was, 'How many loaves do you have?' (Mark
8.4,5 ). If the disciples had had more than the minimum
required for life, the hunger of others would have been
their fault. They had less than the minimum: seven
loaves and a few small fish for thirteen men, including
Jesus. But they practised self-renunciation, asceti-
cism. Satisfied with their poverty, Jesus performed the
miracle of multiplying the food, with much to spare.
Let today's Christians deny themselves and become
poor. Then they will see that Jesus has remained the
same.
During Jesus' earthly life, there were places where
he could not perform mighty works (Mark 6.37). Can it
be that through our greed we have created such places
in our day?
Come to Jesus, forsaking all. Then you can have him
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Influence God
Like every well-organized brain, that of God also has a
mechanism for forgetting and remembering. He says,
'Behold, I, even I, will utterly forget you' (Jeremiah
23.39).'I will also forget thy children'(Hosea 4.6).'I. • •
will not remember thy sins' (Isaiah 43.25).
On the other hand, the groaning of the children of
Israel caused him to remember his covenant (Exodus
6.5). The sense of prayer is to bring to God's re-
membrance things he has known from time
immemorial.
Like every unselfish being, the one he forgets most is
himself. Therefore our prayers should begin with the
words 'Hallowed be thy name'. Usually they start with
the request 'Do something for me', which is not right.
He needs most to be reminded of himself and of his
Kingdom.
There are privileged people who obtain from God
everything they desire. It is written, 'The Lord did
according to the word of Moses' (Exodus 8.13). More
than others, such individuals should say to God, 'Not
my will, but Thy will be done.' In the embrace of love
we should forget ourselves, as he forgets himself. We
need not worry; there will be others to remind him of
our existence.
Luther prayed,
O Lord and good Father, I don't wish to be or not to
be, to live or to die, to know or not to know, to have
or to lack. Your will be done; I don't wish what is
Yours. I wish Yourself. You are not more beloved by
me when I have it well, and not less when I have it
evil.
God's glory should be our supreme desire in prayer.
The Jews had fled from Egypt in a hurry. They must
have left behind many possessions, but not their
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timbrels. With these they were able to praise God
(Exodus 15.20). We may be assured that we can also
bring before him our diverse petitions. We can even be
very insistent in them. When the children of Israel
were in great danger, Moses said soothing words to
them, while to God he cried (Exodus 14.13-15). Jesus,
too, 'offered up prayers and supplications with strong
crying and tears' (Hebrews 5.7).
We are all what we are as a result of influences that
impinge upon us. When God requires us to pray, he is
essentially asking us to influence him. In this respect
he is like us. Let us with determination influence him
in favour of the cause to which he calls us.
If prayer moves him, it also influences those for
whom we pray. When we kneel in prayer for someone
else, we kneel not only before God but also before
those for whom we are praying, entreating them thus
to follow the right way.
Our prayers influence both God and others.
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God Who Evolves
Pascal wrote, 'Nature has some perfections to show
that she is the image of God and some defects to show
she is only an image.'
Mona Lisa could not exist without a model, about
whom we know nothing. Leonardo da Vinci's painting
proves that real women who sometimes smile won-
derfully must exist. Without them we would never
have had this admirable image.
Nature is only an image. Therefore an original must
exist.
I believe that the ontological argument for the exis-
tence of God brought by Anselm of Canterbury (1033-
1109) still stands: We have an idea of a perfect being.
Existence is an attribute of perfection; therefore a
perfect being must exist. This is God.
If everyone's T is incommunicable, how much more
is his! Jesus said, 'No one knows the Father except the
Son' (Matthew 11.27). When we write about God,
therefore, we write about an unknown Being. 'If any
man thinks that he knows anything, he knows
nothing yet as he ought to know' (1 Corinthians 8.2).
We know only a few, a very few, words of God. He is
brief, and our knowledge is scanty. Our sermons and
books about him must be brief too.
God is known from the Bible under different names.
Thomas Aquinas raised the question whether the
names predicated about God are synonymous. In his
book Sentences, he uses for the first time in church
history the expression 'attributes of God'. He teaches
that the names attributed to God all signify one and
the same thing but under many distinctions of reason.
We call him by different names only because we
apprehend him in manifold ways, but he is one.
This one God has revealed about himself in Scrip-
ture not only his almightiness, but also some of his
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limitations; he is love and cannot love less than to
the uttermost. He is immortal. He is invisible. He
cannot lie. He cannot get wrathful except with our
consent. He said to Moses/ 'Let me alone that my
wrath may wax hot against the Jewish people'
(Exodus 22.24). Because Moses did not let him alone,
he did not exterminate the people as he might have
otherwise.
There is one attribute of God that makes every
quarrel with him appear as senseless as the quarrels
with men. God is what he is (Exodus 3.14}. He is not
what we or he himself would like him to be. He
decides all things. He never decided to be the only one
to decide all things. He is God. He did not choose to be
God, as you did not choose to be a human being, of a
certain sex and race, with a certain heredity, born in
certain circumstances that will shape your destiny for
life. He simply exists.
To him the same words apply that Paul used for
himself, 'I am what I am' (1 Corinthians 15.10). God is
what he is by nature. Paul was what he was by God's
grace. God is the perfect example of a being self-
existent, without inner conflict, accepting all his
characteristic features, not quarrelling with himself,
not desiring the impossible for himself.
For him, too, being means evolving, becoming. The
literal translation of the words spoken to Moses 'Ani
ehyeh ashei ehyeh' is 'I become what I become', not
'what I am'. He knows what he will become. With the
qualities he possesses, he could not become less than
all in all.
He is basically the same always, but he evolves. A
Jewish child of five passing near a church with his
father once said, 'Papa, let us enter to see what is new
with God.' This is why we should go to church - to
receive good news. A pastor who tells only what God
was two thousand years ago is not very helpful, since
God 'becomes what he becomes'. There is no abso-
lutely   changeless   object   of   knowledge   and  no
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unchangeable knower, and there is therefore no un-
changeable knowledge.
An unknown, an invisible God, a God who evolves -
I cannot comprehend this. When you cannot catch a
butterfly with empty hands, you have understood its
nature. Knowledge is always only partial and therefore
hinders intimacy. The Lord said that he would dwell
in the thick darkness' (i Kings 8.12). It is only in
darkness that he can be embraced.
If you do not wish a God like this, it would be better
to avoid him. Be happy he does not walk with you,
because he consumes stiff-necked people in the way
(Exodus 33.3).
But if you accept him as he is, then love him with all
your heart and with all your soul. This is the first
commandment. Everything else comes afterwards.
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Are You Ready to Diel
Jesus said, 'Whosoever shall confess me before men,
him will I confess also before my Father who is in
heaven' (Matthew 10.32).
When the Communists took over Cambodia, they
entered a church during the Sunday service. Taking
the Bible from the pulpit, an officer put it on the
threshold. As his men stood by with rifles ready, he
ordered the people to leave the building one by one and
spit on the Bible. 'Whoever does so will be free to go
home,' he said. 'Whoever does not will be shot on the
spot.'
Imagine for a moment that you were a member of
the congregation. What would you have done under
the circumstances?
As one who has passed through similar situations, I
know the thoughts that flash through the mind when
put to such a test: 'I have a bride. Her heart would break
if I were to die. My time has not yet come... I have old
parents who are invalids. They depend on me for
support. They are doomed if I die. Love obliges me to
spit... So what if I spit ? Jesus knows that I have done so
under duress. He forgave Peter, who denied him with-
out being in such danger as this. He understands human
weakness. In any case, I will spit only a little bit.'
These were people who had come to church to
worship God and study his word, but they had never
decided to die for Christ. One by one, Christians, who
ten minutes before had praised Christ in song, left the
church and spat on the Bible. Then came a girl of
sixteen. When challenged at gunpoint to spit, she
began to weep and said, 'I cannot do it. I love God. The
Bible is his letter to us. No child spits on his father's
letter.' She knelt down and wiped away the spittle
from the cover of the Bible - and fell dead over the holy
book, shot in the head.
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What would you have done? Many of us have an-
swered a call to come forward to the altar. The altar in
Jerusalem was a place where creatures died. Lambs,
rams, doves, whatever came upon the altar died. Did
you understand your response to the altar call in these
terms?
We are not all put in the same situation. Not every-
one is forced to lay their life on the line. However,
every Christian chose death at his conversion, if it was
genuine.
Rabbinical commentaries have said that the key to
the Bible lies in the words, 'This is the law, when a
man dies. . .'(Numbers 19.14). If a person does not die
for the law, they have never really considered it to be
the law of God. This is how Christians think, too. A
Christian is someone, 'dead to sin' and 'dead with
Christ' (Romans 6.2,8). To respond to an altar call
means to die to the world. If you have understood this
rightly and lived in this spirit, you will make the right
choice in times of crisis.
Few of us may be asked to spit on the Bible literally;
but to spit or not to spit is a choice we make daily when
we are tempted. It means spitting on the Bible, indeed,
on Christ, if we wilfully and consciously prefer a sin to
his commandments.
Let us choose rather to wipe away the spittle with
which others have soiled his holy word and to be
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One Trinitarian God
To Jews and Muslims, the greatest stone of offence in
the Christian religion is the belief that the one God is a
trinity. Jesus is the first to give a Trinitarian formula to
the Godhead. He says, 'Baptize in the name of the
Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost'
(Matthew 28.19).
The Church teaches us to worship the unity in the
Trinity and the Trinity in the unity. We are not com-
manded to understand it. In fact, we do many things
without understanding them. How many of us com-
prehend the technicalities of electricity, of cars, of jets,
of our household gadgets, of the medicines we use?
Curiously, the early church never said there were
three persons in the Godhead. 'Person' is a word used
for a whole being. The church fathers who fixed the
dogma spoke about three hypostases in the Godhead.
Etymologically, hypostasis means 'inferior' [hypo) and
'stand' [stasis). Only the three together, Father, Son
and Holy Ghost constitute a whole being. There exists
no wholeness outside the totality of the Godhead.
Two main accusations are brought against the
Trinitarian teaching of the Bible.
1.	It contradicts mathematics, which is a discipline
that never permits two different series of computa-
tion. One plus one plus one can yield only three.
Another solution, that one plus one plus one should
equal one, is out of the question.
Three persons can surely not be one person, but it
does not contradict mathematics to say that three
hypostases, whatever this word means, or that a divine
Father, a divine Son, and a divine Spirit should be one
Godhead. Three different entities like body, soul and
spirit form one person. Many trees form one forest.
2.	It contradicts the biblical teaching that God is
one.
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Deep biblical truth demands vigorous mental effort
and much knowledge. Those who cannot discipline
themselves to attain such knowledge are like the fox
in Aesop's fable. Unable to breach die fence guarding
the vineyard, he said, 'I would never eat such grapes
anyway. They are sour/
Those who have studied know that the Old Testa-
ment never speaks about God being absolutely one.
The Hebrews have two expressions for the notion 'one'
- echad and yachid. Yachid stands for perfect unity. 'I
have one only son' would be in Hebrew yesh li ben
yachid. Echad stands for composed unity, as in the
expression, 'Vaihi eiev vaihi bokeryom echad' (It was
evening and it was morning, one day). (Genesis 1.5).
God says that man and wife 'shall be one [echad)
flesh' (Genesis 2.24). This shows that the word 'one' is
not taken in the Bible in the absolute sense.
Elohim, one of the most frequent appellations for
God in the Old Testament, is a plural. It could be
translated 'Gods', but in Genesis 35.7 and other places,
the verb after the subject Elohim is in the singular.
After hearing the two distinct dreams of Pharaoh,
Joseph says, 'The dream of Pharaoh is one [echad)'
(Genesis 41.25). He does not even say, 'The two
dreams are one/ The two dreams are simply one
dream. Many twos can be one. May God grant that we
may understand it.
Many Jewish theologians have seen they cannot
defend the absolute unity of the Godhead.
The renowned eleventh-century rabbi Gabriol dis-
tinguishes between God, his will and his activity in
the world, which is something other than his real
being, about which we can know nothing. He makes
the same distinction that Christian theology makes
between Deus absconditus (the hidden God) and Deus
levelatus (God revealed), the same distinction which
Hindus made thousands of years before Christ be-
tween Brahman Nirguna (God without attributes, that
is, without qualities attributed to him by men, which
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therefore cannot express ultimate reality) and Brah-
man Saguna (God with attributes).
God can be philosophized about as 'one' in the
precise sense of the word only so long as he remains an
object of speculation. Those who have a personal expe-
rience with God conceive of him as Creator, as Saviour
from their sins, and as one who sanctifies them and
makes them God-like. The Trinity was experienced in
the spiritual life before being fixed as dogma.
Let us adore the whole God, not only one aspect of
him. In Hebrew the word for 'face' [panim] does not
exist in the singular. The Hebrew Bible speaks about
the 'faces' of God. We adore not only the majestic face
of the serene Father Almighty, but also the face marred
by sorrow of the God who suffered for us on Golgotha.
We also adore what the Kabbalah calls 'the little face' -
the dovelike face that awakens our desire for inno-
cence and goodness.
If we do not understand much, it does not matter. St
Augustine, walking along the seashore, reflected on a
book about the Trinity that he wanted to write. Hear-
ing a child's cry and fearing something may have
happened, he investigated, only to be told, 'I weep
because I want to put the ocean in my bucket and can't
succeed.' Augustine learned not to expect too much
from the reflections of his little mind about the great
God.
Through deep thought we can know something of
the fringes of the problem. May this suffice and may
we be his adorers both in spirit and in truth.
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A Few Thoughts about
the Devil
The Bible calls the devil 'the king of terrors' (Job 18.14)
and 'the firstborn of death' (v.i3); among many other
names. The demons who serve him are usually not
given individual names. When asked, one of them said
to the Lord, 'My name is Legion' (Mark 5.9).
We know only two possible exceptions. One devil is
called Apollyon, the angel of the bottomless pit (Rev-
elation 9.11 ). The apocryphal book Tobit speaks about
a demon whose name was Asmodee. It seems probable
that one result of serving the devil is an obliteration of
personality.
Demons perform many works on earth. The most
insidious is probably that of sowing doubt. It was the
devil's first ploy with Eve. Not content with deceiving
the race, the devil dared to approach Jesus himself. The
Father had said at his baptism, 'This is my beloved Son'
(Matthew 3.17). Every believer receives just such an
assurance. After a few weeks, Satan tempted Jesus
with the words, 'If thou be the Son of God' (Matthew
4.3). He uses the same tactic with us.
But he uses even more insidious methods. The Spirit
of the Father speaks in a believer (Matthew 10.20), but
not always. Satan can also influence a believer to such
an extent that he is even able to speak through him.
The Lord responded to certain of Peter's words by
saying, 'Get thee behind me, Satan' (Matthew 16.23).
Jesus discerned that the false thoughts expressed by
Peter did not come from his own heart.
Knowing the devil's power, many believers seek
some accommodation with him. Montaigne wrote, 'I
would burn one candle for God and one for the devil.'
This attitude is wrong. My prayer is, 'God, help me
every day to be an annoyance to the devil.' We don't
have to fear him, in spite of his seeming might. The
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Empire State Building is gigantic only when viewed
from street level. Christians are seated in, heavenly
places (Ephesians 2.6). Seen from above, the devils are
little creatures.
In Matthew 12.25 and 26 Jesus suggests the best
tactic to use in dealing with demons: try to turn one
against the other. Split them. The devil of self-
satisfaction over one's religiosity can be turned against
the devil of whoredom; the devil of thrift against that
of gambling; the devil of fear (of being discovered and
apprehended) against that of lying and theft.
In times of great demonic oppression and tempta-
tion, a simple change of your place of habitation is also
effective. Devils are patriots (as were, to an unhealthy
extreme, great Satanic personalities like Hitler and
Stalin). If you move to another location, they do not
always move together with you. A devil besought
Jesus not to be sent out of the country (Mark 5.10).
On some occasions, the devil might give you a hard
time if you fight him. When forced to leave an individ-
ual, he might throw him or her to the ground (Mark
9.20). But devils can be chased away. Subtlety can also
be used successfully to outwit them.
Just be aware that the devil (collectively) will plague
you until the end of your earthly life. He attacked the
innocent couple, the crown of creation, in paradise. He
promised them a religious boon: to be like God. He
also knew how to keep silent when the threat was too
great. He did not contradict God when he was cursed
but simply continued his work. He incited Cain and
Abel to quarrel about religious matters to make a
mockery of religion. He induces men to run after
women only because they are beautiful, causing them
to forget decency and virtue.
He often uses renowned personalities as tools. Lenin
and Hitler both wrote books that shaped the political
destinies of the twentieth century. Christianity has
not produced many books with such an impact. While
Hitler built gas chambers and ovens to kill millions of
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Jews, the Church failed to organize a missionary work
to bring millions of Jews to conversion.
Hosea well said, 'The revolters are profound to make
slaughter' (Hosea 5.2). We are not profound. Therefore
many Christians have been led astray, even to the
point of helping Hitler and Lenin. Christians some-
times sacrifice to devils while believing they sacrifice
to God.
When Jesus said, 'Beware of men' (Matthew 10.17),
he meant to be taken seriously. He warns us that there
are some people sown in this world by the devil
(Matthew 13.24, 25, 37, 38). These are not simply
notorious figures like Hitler or Stalin, but ordinary
people you might encounter in everyday life.
But don't panic. Remember, the devil will try hard-
est to make you disbelieve that you are a child of God.
My answer to him is, 'Then if I am a child of the devil, I
will be an Absalom, a treacherous son to him. I will
love God even if I am not his.'
He will also try to make you believe that right is
wrong and wrong is right. He will appear as an angel of
light to deceive (2 Corinthians 11.14). Again, my reply
is, 'Though now I see through a glass darkly, I know
whom I have believed and trust him to keep me from
falling and to keep all I have committed to him even
though my senses deceive me. I will love him even if I
cannot see him' (2 Corinthians 13.12; 2 Timothy 1.12).
Scorn the devil. He is a defeated foe, as he knows full
well. Jesus conquered him and all his minions on
Calvary, for all of us sinners. From the light of
Golgotha you can look down on him. I repeat, he is a
little creature.

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Problems of Faith
in God
Darwin's most radical claim was that evolution is
aimless and without inherent direction. His theory
was a biological counterfeit of Adam Smith's laissez-
faire economics. Smith had argued that a well-
regulated, stable and harmonious economy would be
the natural result of untrammelled interest actively
pursued by all.
We live some two hundred years after the death of
Adam Smith. There is no harmonious economic life.
Nor could the order in nature result from uncontrolled
struggle of all against all.
Why should and how could random evolution pro-
duce unselfishness and self-sacrifice - even in the
animal world? In many flocks of birds, for example, the
first bird that spots a predator utters a warning cry. The
flock scatters. The bird has saved its mates by calling
attention to itself, sacrificing its life for the good of the
flock.
Nature cannot be explained without a Creator. To
acknowledge him does not solve all the intellectual
problems. There remains the great question mark: If
the world was created by a rational Being, why the
terrible suffering?
The question 'Why?' addressed to God is as false as
the question 'What two even numbers added together
yield seventeen? ' The book of Lamentations ends with
a question: 'Wherefore dost thou forget us for ever, and
forsake us so long time?' (5.20). We do not know the
reasons for God's doings. We know that he does things
that seem strange to us. But he is a God in whom we
can trust without understanding him. If we can trust
completely in surgeons without understanding what
they do, should we not trust in God, the Creator of the
surgeon?
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I don't claim to understand God, but I know he can
do wonders. He made it possible for Jesus to be born
miraculously to a virgin. Yet every day he still per-
forms the miracle of making a sperm recognize the
ovum. What mechanism prevents the sperm from
fusing with any other kind of cell it may encounter?
Only the miracle of human conception as orchestrated
by God. May this God of miracles do what seems good
to him, not what seems efficient or right to me.
While I say this, I also know I have the liberty to pray
to God to change his decree. He allows me to pray in
the Spirit. The Son prayed in Gethsemane that a decree
of the Father be altered. We can do so too.
In either case, we can trust God.
I trust God because he does not boast. He says that
he created a heaven and an earth. Now, all earthly
rulers praise themselves for the good things they do.
But our God tells us about hell too. He could have kept
it from us in order that we might love and trust him
more. Instead, he tells the truth as it is. We can trust
him.
He freed the Jews from the Egyptian bondage, prov-
ing he could deliver his people. He did not free the Jews
from the Nazi holocaust. It was not that he lacked the
power. He must have good reasons to proceed dif-
ferently in each circumstance. In any case, he takes
full responsibility for everything that happens.
All kinds of theological arguments can be given to
explain the existence of so much evil in the world of a
good God. These valuable explanations are like a
finger pointing to the moon. But to see the moon you
have to look beyond the finger. Then you become
silent. Questions are no longer relevant. You realize
that there are answers that only time will reveal and
that the purposes of God will one day become obvious.
The unrighteous opium war waged by the British
against China opened up the country to the inrush of
missionaries. Access to inland China for evangeliza-
tion was the result of the Arrow War in 1856. God
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nullified good counsel and allowed wrong decisions to
be made (2 Samuel 17.14) in order that David, his
anointed, might return to his kingdom. Thus we learn
not to accept all God's guidance. He gives the wicked
guidance that will destroy them. Rather, we should do
what the Bible teaches about how to be pleasing in his
sight.
I admit that it is not easy to walk with this God.
Sometimes he says very unpleasant things. He tells
Adam that certain things are forbidden, Abraham that
his descendants will be slaves in Egypt for four
hundred years.
You will wonder about his words. Aristotle said,
'Wonder is the starting point of philosophy/ It is the
starting point of religion too. From wonder we advance
to an acknowledgement of our utter dependence upon
God. We — humankind — cannot escape his will.
Nor should we try to escape his will. What we focus
on determines our character. The more exalted the
object about which we think, the more Godlike we
become. It is good for humankind to think primarily
about God.
Every concept is an image of an object. When the
Father forms a notion, he thinks perfectly about his
own divine nature. Thus his idea, the Word, expresses
his nature completely. We know him as the Son. The
two love each other perfectly. The Holy Spirit is this
love. St Bernard of Clairvaux called the Holy Spirit the
kiss between the Father and the Son.
Let us therefore bow before the Holy Trinity. Then
let us add to their love our own. In love we will find the
answer to our restless questionings.
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In the Name of Jesus
Whatever is said about Jesus in the Bible concerns
every believer because Jesus identifies himself organ-
ically with believers. 'Christ is the head of the body'
(Colossians 1.18), and we are the members (i
Corinthians 12.12).
The Romans had a saying, 'Actiones et passiones
sunt suppositorum.' (Actions and passions belong to
the person.) It is not the hand that steals but the thief;
not the hand that gives alms but the philanthropist;
not the heart that loves or hates but the whole person.
Likewise, every action and passion of Jesus is also
mine, and vice versa.
Divine charity is not his alone; I possess it too,
because the spirit that animates him belongs to me.
There is no problem, no burden of mine that is not also
his. My sins do not belong only to me; they are auto-
matically his too and crucify him afresh (Hebrews 6.6).
We have everything in common. We are both twice
born, but in reverse order. He was born first as the Son
of God and then became man: I was born first as a
human being and then as a child of God. This is the
difference. Otherwise we are one body.
Human life has been given to me as a boat to cross
the sea from nonexistence to heaven. This is the
spiritual sense of the many episodes in the Gospels of
the disciples' travelling by ship across the sea of
Galilee. Jesus is the good navigator, who also stills
contrary winds. To resist being totally and consciously
a member of his body is like committing suicide.
We often begin or end personal prayers and public
services with the words 'In the name of Jesus', which
means with a readiness for sacrifice after his example,
or rather, together with him.
When we pray 'Hallowed be thy name' to God, we
are saying in effect, 'Give me the grace of self-sacrifice
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that others, seeing its beauty and knowing that it
arises out of love for you, might be drawn to adore you.'
The sacrifice is meant to be complete. Jesus said,
'Greater love has no man than this, that a man lay
down his life for his friends' (John 15.13). This is the
ultimate sacrifice for a man. Jesus went further: he
died for sinners, for his enemies. Since God's children
belong to a different order of being, their love has the
same ultimacy as that of Jesus: self-sacrifice in the
service of their foes.
Jesus would not elaborate on this teaching. He had
taught people to love their enemies. They asked him
how a man could be released from the heavy duty of
loving his own wife. How far love must go belongs to
the many things Jesus left unsaid because his disciples
were not yet able to bear them.
He is so far beyond us that it is only natural for
communication to be difficult. Doubts arise too in
many things connected with him. There is nothing
wrong in doubting. The wrong lies in sharing the
doubts with anyone other than Jesus himself. Speak
with him about them as the followers of John the
Baptist did: 'Art thou he that should come, or do we
look for another?' (Matthew 11.3).
He will teach you how to love to the uttermost and
reveal to you the mystery of his doings. If you love like
Jesus and become one with him, people will be
offended by your deeds as they were offended by his
commanding a Jew to carry a load on the Sabbath. In
the case of that man, a natural law had been broken. He
had been healed in a moment after thirty-eight years of
paralysis and was able to carry a mat on his shoulders.
The natural laws come from the same God who
ordered us to keep the Sabbath. If the first were broken,
why not the latter?
With Jesus, we are in a sphere that humans cannot
judge; the realm of the supernatural. Christ's ministry
engendered in Herod the reaction that he was John the
Baptist come back from the dead, in the Pharisees that
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he was in a pact with the devil, in his relatives that he
was beside himself (Mark 3.21), in Peter that he was
'the Son of God'. The qualities that called forth so
many reactions must have been beyond the ordinary.
We believe the only explanation is that he was - and is
— God incarnate.
Spinoza wrote, 'That God would assume human
nature, I must confess seems to me as absurd as that a
circle assumed the shape of a square.' To which I
would respond with the words of Tertullian: 'I believe
it because it is absurd.' A child can take a piece of
string and shape it like a circle, then reshape it like a
square. We have to accept on faith the fact that God
can do things that surpass the imagination or reason of
the greatest genius.
The most intimate disciples of Christ do not under-
stand everything yet. St Ignatius, bishop of Antioch,
before his martyrdom said, 'I am burdened with
chains, but I am only a beginner in the Church of
Christ.'
Faith tells us that Jesus is God. He is love to the
uttermost, and he calls us to such love, even towards
our enemies. He is one head and we are his body. We
are one.
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Reason and Sentiment
Only one half of the human brain directs logical think-
ing. It is the left hemisphere where the treasury of
words is located. The right hemisphere is the seat of
pictures and dreams. Strangely, it is this half that more
quickly provides a solution to the serious problems of
life.
Reason is not reliable. The Romanian word for
'mind' is 'liar'. A fox that once lost its tail in a trap tried
to persuade the other animals that it was much better
not to have a tail. We also tend to propose as objective
truth ideas that would serve to justify our past biogra-
phies.
A multitude of depraved sentiments exert a detri-
mental influence on our reasoning. We all agree that
two and two are four, that it is warm when the sun
shines, and that the USA has a president - but only
because these truths don't interfere with our own
interests and passions.
Hobbes said, 'Even the axioms of geometry would be
disputed if men's passions were concerned in them.'
Lenin also wrote, 'Men would contradict that two and
two are four if it conflicted with their interests.'
Truth can be very unpleasant when memory tells
me, 'You have sinned', and pride says, 'It is not so'.
Pride almost always succeeds in convincing memory.
Reason is at hand to offer powerful alibis. Francis
Bacon said it in Novum Organum: 'The human under-
standing is no dry light, but receives an infusion from
the will and affections, where proceed sciences which
may be called "sciences as one would".'
People even become martyrs of a religion they em-
braced only because it happened to be the religion of
their sweetheart. One of the top leaders of a terrorist
gang in West Germany killed and went to prison
because the boy she loved was a revolutionist. This was
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her only motive for embracing the most radical ideas.
Christ refuses faith in him engendered by such mo-
tives. He counsels those who plan to build a tower to
sit down first and count the cost, and advises kings
who intend to make war to consult first whether they
are able to win (Luke 14.28-31). He endorses the
wisdom of people who, in building a house, dig deep
and lay the foundation on rock (Luke 6.48}. In effect, he
is saying they must make sure they have the right
motives and serve the highest causes.
He urges us to follow him only if we have full proof
that faith in him is right. He exempts those who don't
have the evidence from the duty to hold this faith. 'If I
had not done among them the works which none other
man did, they had not had sin,' Jesus said (John 15.24).
You are without excuse only if a clear revelation has
been given you.
However, let us always remember that one part of
our mind can apprehend the truth quickly without
relying on the processes of reason. It is the same part
that induces Romeo to consider Juliet the only girl
worth living and dying for and makes Don Quixote
forsake all for Dulcinea. God must be loved with all
the heart. Therefore, this part of the mind has to
convince the other half of its validity, while admitting
the possibility of distortion due to emotional com-
plexes of sympathy and antipathy, which block truth.
Reason can adduce proof that adultery is love, that
theft is wise provision, that unbelief is intellectual
honesty. 'Every way of a man is right in his own eyes,
but God weighs the heart' (Proverbs 21.2). Because we
don't have a strong grip on truth, with hearts com-
mitted to the desire for truth alone, many churches are
able to resort to the ways of the world with considerable
success.
Before apprehending truth, your reason must be-
come truthful. Without cleansing the mind of passion,
you render the grasp of religious truth virtually impos-
sible.
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Why Evil in the World
of a Good Father}
Anyone who reads the Bible is invariably struck by the
sheer volume of evil and suffering it recounts, in
particular the suffering of the innocent. To many
people this poses a grave problem.
The simplest answer to the question 'Why is there
so much evil in a world created by a good God? ' is, 'We
do not know.'
Hayyim ibn Mussa (1390-1460), a Spanish rabbi,
tells how he heard a renowned preacher attempting to
explain why God acted as he did and speculating about
his deeds. Thereupon', the rabbi said, 'misfortune
came upon me in a great pogrom in Seville. I was
beaten and wounded until my persecutors desisted
because they thought I was dead. And here you are
speculating about God and his decrees. I have greater
faith in the sufferings which God imposes upon us
than in your theories about them.'
Is it not enough to endure pain and persecution and
natural catastrophes? Must we endure philosophical
explanations too?
Job, upon receiving news that he had lost all his
property and that all his children had died, exclaimed,
'The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; blessed
be the name of the Lord' (Job 1.21 ). When God gives, he
gives in mercy; when he takes, he takes in mercy.
About mercies we need to jubilate and not to specu-
late.
An evil can often be a blessing in disguise. Edison,
thought to have an addled brain, was driven out of
school. A train conductor who beat him made him
deaf. This affliction closed him to external influences.
He could draw from inner wells. As a result, we owe to
him the electric light bulb. More than that, he earned a
patent every fortnight.
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Lincoln was grieved because of two bankruptcies.
Through these God showed him that he was made for
something better than commerce. He became one of
the great presidents of America.
There have been many artists of unsound mind.
Over seventy analytical papers have been written
about the folly of Van Gogh alone. Yet would his art
have been possible without this touch of madness?
Neither the Romanian poet Eminescu nor the Hun-
garian Ady Endre could have created their master-
pieces without the incipient folly in them.
Some artists have been aware of their weakness and
loved their perilous handicaps. Edward Munch said, 'I
want to keep my weaknesses. They are a part of
myself. I wouldn't want to miss suffering. I have to
give much thanks to this suffering in my art.'
I once saw a performance of an old classical Japanese
dance. Its subject was a young king of such beauty that
wherever he appeared all activity stopped. No one
could do anything but hold their breath while gazing at
the king's splendour. His appearance negated the pos-
sibility of a normal existence for anyone else. His
subjects could no longer love one another because they
compared their neighbours unfavourably with the
beautiful king. For the good of his citizens, then, the
young king had to wear an ugly mask.
Do you understand the significance of this story?
Could human relations and falling in love and the
world itself exist if we were able to see our God in all
his majesty? He too had to wear an ugly mask by
taking the form of sin-sick humanity. In the person of
Jesus, God appeared among us with 'no form nor
comeliness'. He had 'no beauty that we should desire
him.. . We esteemed him not' (Isaiah 53.2,3). Thus he
made it possible for us to esteem one another's beauty
and desire after the love of our fellows.
Think about this story. It might help you somewhat
to make peace with the existence of evil in a world
created by a good God.
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God's Characteristics
Men dress God in the garments of their age. He was
described as a despot when the world was ruled by
despots. He has been successively portrayed as a
slaveholder and an English country-gentleman. Scien-
tists conceived of him as a great geometrist, a great
mechanic. Today some say he is a great revolutionist.
In a male-dominated society, he surely must be male.
Modern-day feminists call him 'she'.
These extrapolations are very much out of touch
with God as described in the Bible. The last impression
one retains after a lifetime of study is that God is an
unfathomable mystery.
We have the assertion 'God is love' ( i John 4.8), but it
must be a love entirely apart, because he takes the
responsibility for actions not normally performed by a
loving being. God says, 'I will corrupt your seed' -
think only of the tragedy of having bad children - 'and
spread dung upon your faces' (Malachi 2.3 ). For the sins
of certain priests, whether a few or many, he puts the
whole priesthood under a curse in the same chapter.
When village children hear the song 'There's a wide-
ness in God's mercy like the wideness of the sea/ they
think only of the breadth of the millpond. But naviga-
tors accustomed to travelling the seven seas would
understand better. Astronauts would doubtless think
in terms of the limitless ocean of space. But there is
something wider than the universe, and that is the
spiritual realm, in which God is not limited to our
human concept of goodness.
We see God neither as he is nor as he would like to
be. One of our impressions is that the God who created
our universe is a sad God. Lucifer had just rebelled,
drawing with him a third part of the 'stars' of heaven
(Revelation 12.4). The fall of man followed. We deal
with a sad God who repents of having created our
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species and is grieved (Genesis 6.6). Our God is also
wearied. 'Ye have wearied the Lord with your words'
(Malachi 2.17). Jesus, 'the express image of God'
(Hebrews 1.3), was also 'a man of sorrows, and ac-
quainted with grief (Isaiah 53.3), and knew weariness
while on earth. John's Gospel records that once he sat
on a well in Samaria, 'being wearied with his journey'
(John 4.6). He had left Jerusalem upon hearing news
about dissension over his and John's baptism and was
now among strangers. Bone-tired, hungry and thirsty,
he was indeed a man of sorrows. If we don't realize
this, his words will sometimes appear strange and
incomprehensible.
But look! A woman comes to draw water, alone, in
the heat of the day. She is despondent and weary of life.
She has had six husbands, including one stolen from
another's marriage. None of them could give her joy.
But immediately the weary Son of God forgets his own
sadness and becomes a comforter to her (John 4.4-42).
Let us not create images of God according to the
mores of our society or our own status. Meeting the
tired God, the one crucified every day afresh by his
followers (Hebrews 6.6), let us forget our own deep
sorrows and be a comfort to him.
May I add that the present meditation needs to be
taken with a grain of salt. I too am a weary man who
has known much sadness, and I show God as I see him.
I paint him with sombre hues, knowing that 'now we
see through a glass, darkly, but then' - praise God! -
'face to face' (1 Corinthians 13.12). And I know that
one day a happy God 'will wipe away all tears from
their eyes; and there shall be no more. . . sorrow, nor
crying' (Revelation 21.4).
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